Define me.

2008-06-08T18:48:00.004+08:00

I've started to update my blog at the end of the week now. Blame it on school. I simply will get the lazy-ness after reaching home after school. I'll switch on the lappy only to do my prjoect, check on my emails,friendster & this blog. But i don't update. I'm supposed to be working today but i my head feels heavy.

Yetserday's homecoming was superb but not the concert & food. I wasted my 10bucks. But anyhoos, i get to meet my classmates & friends. I miss them like a lot. Everyone dress like WOW. huhu. I miss camwhoring with them. The photos will be up when they send it to me. I only have a few with me. Went to McD and had our dinner cos i'm terribly hungry. We catch up with each other. Talked about stuffs. I miss those days. I miss my friends. But i don't miss that school. huhu. LOL. If there's another homecoming next year, i hope it'll be better.

I'm done with my Accounting homeworks but not my OA project. The dateline will be tomorrow. 5 more slides & i'm done. urghh! i have no idea what else to do for my presentation. damn!

Finally, i had a room on my own. nyeheheh. Since my hoilday starts on the 13th, i shall groom my room after that date. heheh. IKEA here i come! LOL!

Beybie went to KL for 4 days. I miss him so much. 4 days like 4 years. =(

LOVE

fitri

2008-06-01T17:11:00.003+08:00

HAPPY SUNDAY!

I'll start my entry by updating about my friday first. School started at 10am but i went out from house at 6.45am. hahahs. But i didn't went to school straight of course. I met up lan,bil,len & san and helped them with their roleplay. I'm their camerawoman. huhu. We had our breakfast at Mcd before proceeding to Bishan CC. The reading corner opened at 9.30am & we know that we don't have the time to go to school. They forced me to go to school but i insist but if i were to go to school i'll be marked as late & i'll be send home as i'm wearing jeans. So, i might as well skip school for that day. After that, i met my group members & went to King Albert's Mcd & did our roleplay there. We did a great job. We only need to edit our video. And we're all done! Met up with hunney & had our dinner. imy hunn!

I worked in the morning shift yesterday. It was a busy busy day. At about 9.30am, there's already a crowd & we only had 1 counter open. Since Rini was late, i helped her open up her counter. It was busy the whole day. I was lucky to be at the kacang puteh stall. nyeheheh. But i'd pop popcorn in the morning. erghh! i hate popping pocorns. It's fun but tiring and i'm using 2 machines to pop, ALONE! Aniways, hunney waited for me at Orchard Mrt & we proceed to City Hall. Since its the GSS seaaon, i shopped till i drop! huhu. But still, i have not found anything for the homecoming. tsskkk! I really have no idea of what i'm gonna wear. hmpphh! So, we had dinner at Marina Sq Cavana. It's the last day of their operation. We went home at 11plus. Thanks for the day again hunn!

My sunday was spent at home. Because i had no plans, i need to save $$ & i'm lazy to go out. Did my accounting homework halfway. ergghh! The new topic is driving me crazy. My OA project isn't done yet.

For all those times you stood by me

For all the truth that you made me see

For all the joy you brought to my life

For all the wrong that you made right

For every dream you made come true

For all the love I found in you

I'll be forever thankful baby

You're the one who held me up

Never let me fall

You're the one who saw me through, through it all

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldnt speak

You were my eyes when I couldnt see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldnt reach

You gave me faith coz you believed

I'm everything I am

Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly

You touched my hand I could touch the sky

I lost my faith, you gave it back to me

You said no star was out of reach

You stood by me and I stood tall

I had your love I had it all

Im grateful for each day you gave me

Maybe I don't know that much

But I know this much is true

I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were always there for me

The tender wind that carried me

A light in the dark shining your love into my life

Youve been my inspiration

Through the lies you were the truth

My world is a better place because of you

❤❤

HAPPY 4 YEARS 4 MTHS BEYBIEE! ILYSM!! ❤

LOVE,
FIITfitri

2008-05-28T21:46:00.002+08:00

Yes, i seemed to miss my last-time-curly hair. I feel like perming my hair again. I love curly hair. huhu. lols.

Aniways, i was few minutes late for school, AGAIN. I'm always late. Even if i'm late for a minute, i'm consider as half an hour late. merepek nk mampos arh skolah nie. Even my secondary school isn't as strict as this. hmmmphh! We had performance in the morning. If i know, i wouldn't attend for the CAH period. We had Bzf after that. I was 10 minutes late for class, LIKE AGAIN. Because i went to the canteen & have my breakfast. huhu. but i still continue eating in class. School ended at 1 today. Went to King Albert Park's McD & have our roleplay there. but ended up we cancel it due to the video cam & the noise. We'll have the real thing on friday. I went home straight after that since beybie's werking. I'll be having floorball training tomorrow @ Tampines Campus. I hope it'll be like the last practice. =)

i'm addicted to better in timeby leona lewis. nice nice song.

i miss my beybie already. make some time for me please.

LOVE

fitri

2008-05-26T21:46:00.003+08:00

oh, i so miss my boyfriend. you & your work. urghh! it gets pretty hard to meet him nowadays. school, work & pract. i understand beybie. but at least make an effort to meet me. at least i do, but not you.

monday blues. the fun peeps weren't in school today. i passed my accounting test. huhu. 90.5 out of 100. i'm happy to get at least 90. but i'll try to work harder for my next CA. bzf lesson was f-ing bored. 1 hour of theory & i slept for the other hour. OA CA will be on this thursday & my bzf roleplay will be on next wednesday. && i've not memorised my script. hoho. -_-"

sha, tgk ape. aku tdo lah. huhu. (((: & rahimah, thanks for this picture eh. cool ke per. hahah.

my blogskin need to be change. i used to change my blogskin regularly but now i don't have the time to do so. i'll try to get it done during the 3 weeks holidays. huhu. i want holidays!

looking forward to RS Homecoming((:

LOVE,

fitri(:

2008-05-24T22:25:00.004+08:00

Today, i'm 18 years & 1 month. huhu. okay. that was just random (:

I am becoming sucha lazy pig when it comes to update my blog. Because theres nothing interesting happening these days. Well, school's never interesting. hahah. Aniways, i had accounting test on friday. Ermms, its not difficult nor easy. I need to get at least 90 marks. My project is only 30% done. baik ke pe. i have only 2 weeks or so to complete it. and its not even half done.

Anyhoooos, i stayed at home the whole day today. I feel like going out but my legs seems heavy. and so i rot at home. Yesterday, was hunn's 18th & so i met him straight after school. Went to ssdc together wif thaqif & jp. Hunn went to enrol his 2B. tk sabar2. After enrolling, we went to town but the other 2 went to their separate ways. We actually wanted to catch a movie at Lido but theres no nice movies. So, we proceed on to vivo. Did some shopping, after so long of not doing so. Blame school. hahaha.

Lastly, happy belated 18th beybie. Finally! hahahs. suke lah tu. i hope you like the surprise. huhu.

Oklahh. i need to "'keras"' now. (haha. inside joke) tc lovelies. (:

LOVE

fitri(:

2008-05-21T21:00:00.004+08:00

I am very sorry for not being a regular blogger nowadays. Theres quite a number of things for me to do this week & the following. Get over and done with my BZF roleplay & OA project, & also will be having my ACF CA this friday. damn. I really need to study. I didnt do pretty well for my last test. She minus 6 marks for some stupid mistakes. If not for those mistakes. I could get my 100 marks. damn. But anyhoos, i need to do better for my CA. I'm supposed to have my photography after school just now but i went home straight since it was mum's bday today.

Now I understand why you chose her than me. Part dier baby girl, part i fitri ajer (since now). yelahh2. Well, that was the past. I try not to remember about anything.

Umm, thanks to google. Kan rahimah, aku dah jadi mcm kau siaaa. LOL. tap gerek siaa. hahaha. You know I know ((:

I miss my baby. 2 more days hunny. ILYVM.

Last but not the least,

HAPPY 44th BIRTHDAY IBU!

2008-05-16T22:33:00.008+08:00

Firstly, I am very sorry for my absence. Since school had started, i had a little time spend on my lappy. Because i'm tired, lazy or busy.

So, yeah. I'll update about my OAC camp (9-10 May). I was in Group 1. I didn't know anyone from that group. My group consist of mostly Bishan peepol. Theres from tampines & macpherson too. Majority are guys. Theres only 3 girls including me. My group are all fun & sporting peepol. We are not supposed to sleep & I didnt get to touch my phone for a day. The first activity was we have to go out of the campus & get canned foods for our dinner & supper. We were given $25 each grp & 1 hr to buy all the things. The next activity we did was to go to a place to have our dinner. During dinner, my group take the oppurtunity to know each other. We even played catching. haha. best larh kann. We had night walk after that. I was in the 1st group. We were abit frightened at the start. Me & Fiqah were holding each other's hand. But after a few while, we walked in ones. Thats when we started singing. haha. Aniways, since we're the 1st group, we have to wait for the rest of the groups to finish their walk. It took us abt 2 hours waiting for them. Walked back to the campus. I thought that we could go back to the room & have our sleep. But i was wrong. Its 2am & we're having our rock climbing. Giler tap gerek. My group was the only group to get to try the rock climbing due to the whether. We were blindfolded. I nearly reached the top. 2-3 more steps to reach. Since i'm blindfolded, i can't really see how high i am. We had ball games after that. By the time, it was 6.30 am. Had our morning PT & breakfast. Then, played some games. The last activity was fun. We had to roll on the field. mcm hindustan siaak. The waterbombs was fun fun fun. hahaha. We were released at 1pm. I miss my group members.

Waiting for dinner time.
The rest MIA.
After dinner
The 3 gerls
Again
The guys
After night walk

Me & fiqah
Candid.Waiting to go home
Spidergirl(:
Nearly reached the top.

I went for my floorball training yesterday. It was better yesteday. I had fun during the training. Maybe i'll stick to floorball. I already have 3 ccas for now. I met beybie at TM after my training. I've been meeting him 4 days straight this week cos i can't spend my this wkend with him.

CA1 will be starting next week. damn. I still have 2 projects to complete. I'm going to spend my weekends doing my accounts & OA project. urgghh!

Pictures of today.

Sam & Rahimah
I found my book lahh!
Nabil sibok!
candid again.
tk sempat.I know lahh!

LOVE,

fitri.

2008-05-06T23:42:00.003+08:00

My mood totally shutdown today. No mood for assignments. I didn't finsh it up in school just now. So,my guess was right. Period.

Anyhooots, i met up with hunnx after school since he finishes school early today. He's super nice today. hhahahhs. Something's fishy. hmpph! hmphh! ade udang disebalik batu tuuu. huhu.

I have a powerpoint presentation project to do. Guess what topic i'm doing? My boyfriend -Cristiano Ronaldo. hahahs. mereps tap cool kan. LOL!

I can't sleep. I have to woke up as early as 6 in the morning for school tomorrow. Actually school started at 9 but we are having an outing at Macpherson campus. & school ends at 1 or maybe earlier. Bored lar seii. Anyone willing to accompany me to sumwhere? lol.

LOVE,

fitri

2008-05-05T20:49:00.007+08:00

I had a super duper fun fun day in school today. Thanks to the classmates. The first period was accounting. OMG. Pagi pagi buat org stress. Amazingly, i completed my assignment super duper earlyy. I really focused on my assignment today. Mcm first time gitu kann. huhu. Anyhooos, biz fund was kinda bored. Its like history lesson. Theory theory & theory. But for the last hour, we were given time to discuss on our project. We only took about 10-15 minutes to discuss & the rest of the time chatting. Thats what we usually do during biz fund lesson. the boring-est subject. We had our break at 12-1. I didn't finish up my food because i had no appetite to do so. The guys make me laugh till my stomach is full. hoho. The last period was office application lesson. We did our own stuff. But actually we had a project to do. We camwhored in class. haha. fun kan korang. suke? besok bwk camera ehhs. So, heres the picharss.

tak jadik.
i look FAT

i look like a primary school kid((((:

ema shiok sendiri
me & ema
going crazy

ema & nabil

my hair is in super duper mess
die lagi
&& lagi

my kepale sengettx

There'll definitely be more tomorrow. Just wait. huhus. Aniways, thanks for the camwhoring session peepol. Especially ema. suker eh kau. hp aku jgk jadi sasaran(ehh?).

IMY hunnx.

LOVE,

fitri

2008-05-04T20:20:00.004+08:00

Second chances they don't ever matter,

people never change

Once a whore,

you're nothing more.

I'm sorry that'll never change.

And about forgiveness,

we're both supposed to have exchanged.

Well, there's a million other girls who do it just like you

Looking as innocent as possible to get to who they want and what they like.

2008-05-01T21:15:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 4 YRS 3 MTHS ANNIVERSARY BABYY!

Losing you is like living in a world with no air

I LOVE LOVE LOVEEE YOUUU.

LOVE

fitri

2008-04-30T22:30:00.003+08:00

problems. problems. problems. i can't simply run away from those. but i can avoid it. IN FACT, YOU can avoid it. i'm not blaming you. all this while, i'm not blaming you even if you're the "fire starter". you realised all your mistakes to me but you still do it again. i am forgiving you. but till when? i know you're a nice guy. you treat me very well. you promised not to leave me no matter what. & i trust your words. i always do. please don't make me lose trust in you. make me happy please, baby. ilu too much.

thanks to the classmates for your concerns. eventho i just know you peepol for 2/3 weeks, you peepol are willing to listen to my problems & gave me advises. & thanks for the 3 mats for making us laugh sampai perut nk pecah. they & their jokes. thats why i love my IQ0804E. class photo on friday ((:

LOVE,

fitri

2008-04-30T17:25:00.006+08:00

As promised, heres the updates for my sweet 8teen.

My top 4 who wishes me on the dot : My baby love, naddie, syarah & aishah. I LOVE YOU PEEPOL<33>

24.04.08
I didn't celebrate on the day itself. However, thanks to my lovely classmates. I was late for school. I told them not to wait for me but they insisted. As soon as i reached at the meeting place, they sang for me. Awwwawwwawwww. soooo suweeet. Tap memalukan. Public eh. hhaahhss. Thats not all. They sabo-ed me. Not with the flour or eggs. They make me do something stoopid during SW lesson. Thanks ehh korang. Anyways, Floorball training sucks big time. damn. Okay, that was random. Met hunny after training. Thanks for the watch beyybiee. ((:

25.04.08
I celebrated my 18th birthday with my beybiee. The Hottie & the nottie was hilarious. Eventho our day was short, i really enjoyed myself. Thanks for everything hunny.

26.04.08
I had a surprise birthday on this day. Firstly, syima text me early in the morning at 7 and told me whether we could meet up under my block at 8am. So, i said yes. She gave me a cute lil bear. Thank you very much syim. Secondly,I didn't suspect anything at all. Kak nana asked for a meet up at Raffles. I said i can't cos i was out with family.But i was forced to be there. & i was late. Kak nana said she had some problems & so i accompanied her to Lau Pa Sat as she said she had to meet her friend there. So, yeah, i followed. And i saw yani&zuli. Then, i know what its all about. Thanks ehh korangss. The cakes was lovelyy. I loikee. ((: && thanks for the present lovelies.

27.04.08
This day was celebrated with my dearest family. Brother brought us to sentosa. The sky tower,merlion, museum was all FOC. Cos brother's colleagues are there. The luge & skyride wasn't FOC. It was superly fun. Mum didnt wanna ride that but we forced her to. In the end, she has to. Theres more but i'm too tired to type it all here. Now, let the pictures speak for me. Click here for the pictures. enjoyss. thanks for the shoes mummy&daddy. ((:

29.04.08

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY AIRAHHH! ((:

LOVE,
fitri

2008-04-26T16:11:00.003+08:00

Enjoying my 18th. Will be back after the weekends together with the updates((:

LOVE,

fitri

2008-04-23T20:47:00.003+08:00

Few more hours to my happy happy dayyy. Although i can't celebrate tomorrow - due to school & training, i still have my weekends((: I'm just excited. Some friends even wished me in advance. Thanks for those who have wished me.

School was a blast today cos its a short day. We ended school at 1 & went straight to the canteen to have our lunch. I bought 2 more uniforms. Now, i can have different colours uniform everyday. I went home straight after school since my farhan ended school at 5. I'll be going to my floorball training tomorrow at tampines ite. Since school ended at 4, i decided not to celebrate my birthday tomorrow.

I've got the best thing in the world
Coz' I got you in my heart
And this screw little world
Let's hold hand together
We can share forever
Maybe someday the sky will be coloured with our love

I wake up in the morning
Feeling emptyness in my heart
This pain is just too real
I dream about you,
with someone else
Please say that you love me
That we'll never be apart

You have to promise
That you will be faithful
And there will be lots and lots of love
It is the thing that really matters in this world...

LOVE,

fitri

2008-04-22T21:30:00.002+08:00

School has been great so far - minus the studying part. Accounting lesson was okay2 - i never take accounting in my secondary school life. At first, i found it confusing. But after 2 days of studying it, i somehow find it fun. OA lesson was fun because we get to go online. huhu. Yeah, finally, i bought a new school bag. Aniways, i have floorball training on thursday at ITE Tampines. I don't wanna go can? damn. But but i still have friday, saturday & sunday. huhu.

LOVE isn't about finding the perfect person. It's about seeing an imperfectly person perfectly.

Thanks for the day Mohd. Farhan :) Ilym

2 more dayss loveliess((:

short,simple & sweet. C:

LOVE,
fitri

2008-04-20T19:47:00.006+08:00

I simply hate staying at home the whole day because all i do is eat eat & eat. & i swear i've gained weight. My chubby cheeks tells so. Okay, that was just random.

Anyhooos, on friday, theres a cca fiesta held in school. I've chosen 2 ccas at the moment - Photography club & floorball. Theres still few others which i wanna be in too. The MIC, soccer, outdoor & adventure club, bowling. I wanted to be in all this - IF only i have the time. huhu.

okay best,besok skolah. I think we'll be starting our lesson tomorrow. I'll be starting school at 8. & i hope i won't be late for lesson tomorrow.

I know my entry today is b-o-r-i-n-g because i just don't know what to update here. I've updated too much on school already.
Before i end, here's some pics during the karaoke session with the MB crew. karaoke ke per. lol.

4 more dayss to my M18 beybehh C:

aku ingin engkau slalu
hadir dan temani aku

LOVE,
fitri

2008-04-16T21:28:00.003+08:00

The 3rd day of school and i'm already enjoying it. So, we started lesson today but we didn't study anything today because our CA talked too much. haha. Well, its just the first week. What do you expect us to study without referring to any books. Okay, aniways, I ended class at 1 today & went home straight.

We had some fun activities in school yesterday. The team building game was fun & painful. Now, i have scars on my leg. During breaktime, me & some classmates went to junction 8 to have our lunch. Anyhooos, i met up with boyfie after his school ends. Meet him at cwp. & i took my passport photo size photo. hoho. & i look VERY fat. Blame the photographer. She cropped & zoom my pic. I looked more like my sister. huhu.

I'm currently had a conference conversation with some of my classmates. They are fun fun peepol. & we had fun fun conversation. C:

when you’re around i wrap my self in a pearly smile

when you’re around you light the bulb inside my head

IMY.

LOVE,

fitri

2008-04-14T21:25:00.005+08:00

So, yeah, first day of school was rather fun. It was bored at first cos i didn't know anyone from my class. I met up with asqhiah & friends. && one of her friends was my primary school friend & we proceed to school together. I miss her as we've not met for quite some time eventho we stay near. We had butterflies in our stomach before reaching the school. Actually, both of them are my primary school friends but from different schools. Lets have some flashbacks here. I was in 3 different primary schools in the past. During my primary 1&2, i was in Princess Elizabeth which is in B.Batok. My primary 3&4,i spent my 2 years in Woodlands Primary. And my primary 5&6, in Woodgrove Primary. It's not that i love changing school. I moved out from B.Batok to Woodlands. I wanted to be in Woodgrove but at that time it was far away from my home & after 2 years, it moved in front of my house & so i change form woodlands to woodgrove. Asqhiah is my friend from woodlands whereas Farmiela is a friend from woodgrove. Aniways,I'd make friends just now - ALOT. My class was friendly & supportive peepol. My so-called-partner, Aisyah, looked familiar. It seems like we've met somewhere but we totally forget where. I'm trying my very best to remember. & she's cute((: huhu. So, we had ice breakers just now. The games we played mostly we have to run around - with our uniform. & I sweat like a pig. School ends at about 1.30 & we headed to junction 8 & had our very very late breakfast + lunch. After that, i went home straight. Actually, hunny asked for a meet up but he finishes school at 4 & if i were to wait for him, it'll took me 3 hours cos he'll reach wdlds by 6. See, how hard it is for us to meet. Thats the problem when we get a different-n-far-from-each-other school. Tomorrow's activities are going to be fun i guess. We were told to bring our p.e attire. I hope to get to know my classmates well because they're all nice peepol. && i do hope that i won't regret getting into that school(((:

10 more days beybehh :D
LOVE,
fitri

2008-04-13T21:04:00.009+08:00

School will be starting tomorrow. I'll be going with asqhiah. I'm not that excited for school. I'm feeling a lil bit of scared. & idky. I usually feel this way on the very first day. I'll be a sotong for sure tomorrow. So, yeah,Happy schooling my friends((:

Aniways, i skipped madrasah today & went to johor instead - since shida skipped too. Went to larkin as mum wanna get some stuffs there. Then we went to Giant supermarket. Our stomachs was growling by then. We went somewhere near the open sea & had our dinner. I just love to eat there. I love the view. & of cos i did snap some pictures. Speaking of pictures, i really need to get a new camera for myself. I've been using my phone camera all along.

After eating.

me & sis.

the other makan place.

LOVE,fitri.

2008-04-11T23:16:00.002+08:00

TGIF!
I still have 3 days before school starts. I'm not that excited for school, actually. I still think that holidays aren't enough eventhough i had about 6 months of holiday. Aniways,theres alot of movies which i wanna catch this month. Definitely maybe,Flood,The hottie & the nottie,Funny games,Over her dead body,Doomsday,Ironman,Nims Island,Made of Honour,P2. See, how ALOT is my ALOT. huhu. & i'm only left with 2 tix. I don't really think that i'm able to catch all of it on the cinemas. I guess i have to spend my time watching some of these online.

I was in the morning shift yesterday. It was so bored with nothing to do. Met hunny after work & we watched Untraceable. It was a nice violence show. The show lasted for 90mins & so we decided to walk around town. Hunny bought that crumpler bag. I'll probably buy a crumpler bag too. Speaking of bags, i still have not get a bag yet for school. I won't buy any until i bought my books. Anyhows, we proceed to Bugis after that. We did some shopping & proceed home.

On wednesday, actually, i wasn't feeling well. But still, i went to work. Because i'll feel worst if i'd stay home. If i stayed at home, i'll just be on bed & did nothing. I'll feel giddy if i just stay there. At least when i'm at work, theres things for me to do. & i really feel better. Hunny told me to accompany him as he wanted to do some shopping.

My tuesday was superb - but not in the morning - as i'm working. Stayed in the kacang stall & did nothing. Thats what we do when we're at the kacang stall. Luckily, i had my novel,ipod & speaker with me. At least those could keep me awake & entertained. After work, met up with izyani,zuliana,aini,terry & hazim. Went off to cash studio for the karaoke session. I was forced to sing. I wasn't really feeling well that day but still i joined them. Zuli, gambar maner?

I told you, i'll breakdown. My heart is aching. I'm used to this feeling. I feel it everytime. I wanna try to forget. I'm trying very hard. I'm very weak in the inside. Stop hurting me. Because i know i won't be able to take it anymore. I just can't. I wish you knew what i'm feeling inside. i just wish. '=_=

2008-04-05T19:23:00.005+08:00

I was feeling super duper bored today & so i decided to sign in to my rusty dusty myspace - after 3 months of not doing so. So, i've updated it. I wanna edit the skin but theres some errors. stoopid. I guess i just edit my blog skin. huhu. Well, it's already april & school's starting pretty pretty soon. I'm excited for school. But not too excited. New friends. New environment. Anyhows, i just can't wait to go back to school.

I worked yesterday. Met hunny&family after work. I spent the week with you again. On thursday, we went to Kallang Leisure Park. It's not a park actually. It's just a normal shopping centre with some entertainments such as ice skating, bowling etc. It's kinda bored there cos only few shops are opened. & worst, theres no ATM machine. We only have few cash with us. Also, its raining heavily. So, we're stucked there. We decided to catch a movie there. We watched vantage point. Its a nice movie to watch.

I wanted to have this carebear bear but i can't really find it. damn.

;because you always makes me smile. ILY.

LOVE,

fitri(:

2008-04-01T23:00:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 4 YRS 2 MTHS BEYBIEE! ILY TILL THE END <33

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY PEEPOL!

I just love april. huhu. *hinthint* (((:

LOVE,

fitri C:

2008-03-30T21:57:00.008+08:00

I spent almost the whole week with you. See, i told ya. All of my wishes came true. Okay, almost all. I made boyfie accompany me to town yesterday cos i wanted to change bro's watch strap at Pacific Plaza. As it was just beside Shaw, so i decided to drop by. And Radiah was there too - with her son. OMG! Aku mcm nk cubit2 baby kau. haha. Sooo cuteee. I just LOVE babiess. They are simply soo adorable. Anyhows, i got my pay too. huhuhu.

Things to buy:

- smurfette's hoodies @ Queens Couture

- collect my nike shoes

- new wallet

- school bag(maybe)

I can't spent much this month cos i spent too much on the previous month. I need to save up this month cos i'm getting M18 SOOON. huhu ((:

So, yeahh, walked around town. Then, we felt bored & i decided to take the train & alight at Marina Bay. I just wanna see whats there. Yes, theres nothing there. We just walked & so we reached esplanade. Sat & we chatted. We laughed about the past. Maybe he's right. Maybe those problems makes us really stronger. ILY baby. Well, he keeps pinching my cheeks for no reason.

I told you i was afraid. Afraid of losing someone like you. If ever one day i was to lose you, it'll be a hardtime for me to find a replacement, just like you. because you're so good to me. No one have ever treat me just like the way you treat me. No one have love me just like the way you love me. When you said 'I LOVE YOU', i know that you never lie. 4 years with you is never a regret. I LOVE YOU HUNNY!❤❤

LOVE,

fitri c:

2008-03-28T12:57:00.006+08:00

I went to meet all the animals yesterday. Yes, i went to the zoo with my boyfie. But before we went there, we proceed to the class chalet first. huhu. Sorry lah ppl. Bukan buih ehh. Last minute thing ahh. At least i came in the morning ehhs. Had breakfast with them & went off to the zoo. The weather was perfect except that it rained in the evening. But by then, we're almost done with out touring. I love watching animals shows. Ben&Jerrys after that. Thanks baby for the treat. I had cookie cookie monster. After the zoo trip, we went to BB to watch a movie. We had free tix. Thanks to prom nite. hehe. Watched shutter & i only rate 3 out of 5 for that movie. Because the plot is as the same as the original. So, i know what's gonna happen next after next. No suspense at all. But for those who didn't watch the original, you can consider watching it. Did i say that we played at E-Zone before watching movie? Okay, so yes, played my all-time favourite game, Puzzle Bobble. hehehs. & for boyfie, like usual, soccer, soccer & more soccer games. Then, we both played The Lost World game. & i lost. I'm not good at shooting games. Overall, i had a fun time spending the whole day with him yesterday.

First stop,

my favourite animal - white tiger.

&& next was his. huhu. c:
the elephants were sleeping

the pretty me giraffe

the hippo knows how to take a picture too.

&& thats about all.

Maafkan bila ku tak bisa denganmu

Maafkan jelas sayang itu tak ada

Maafkan ku bolehkan kamu menunggu

Maafkan bila nanti ku jadi mahu

Maafkan bukannya aku tak berhati

Ku hanya ingin cinta yang aku cintai.

LOVE,

fitri.

2008-03-26T15:13:00.004+08:00

If I could get to you
I'd be there in a minute
My world don't make no sense
Not without you in it
ILY.

LOVE,
fitri

2008-03-25T19:22:00.003+08:00

Another photography that i've editted. Well, this has become my hobby. Because it makes me happy happy happyyyy(((((:

Step Up 2 was superb. Watched it yesterday at Lido with hunny, straight after work. Walked around Orchard as hunny wanna buy his school shoes. After tired of walking, we decided to head back to Woodlands. He bought that Nike shoes. I soo love it too. I've bought mine too but different from his. Nike shoes too. huhu. So now, i have 2 school shoes. & i'm totally broke now. I need more $$$$.

Aniways, work have been fun with Radiah around. hohoho. She's my crazy daughter. Yani, Radiah bully Fitri. You'll know what to do tomorrow. (mcm bdk2. lol.) I went home straight after work simply because i don't have any plans. My friends have their own plans & my hunny, don't bother asking.

I'm beginning to like the colour blue now. I used to like blue when i was younger. Then, orange. Now, blue again. For me, blue is cool. cool ke per. lol. Okay, cool ar. Maybe because of cookie monster or smurfette. Those cartoons are blue in colour. & i like those cartoons because they're simply cute to me. huhu.

I'm down with a flu. tulah step sakit. kan betol2 dah sakit. f-ing habis sehh. =_=

There'll be 3/3,4/3,5/3 chalet tomorrow. I soo miss my classmates. I hope most of them will be able to make it. ((:

Cinta ini sudah menelan waktu ku. Siang malam hanya untuk fikirkan engkau. <3

2008-03-22T20:21:00.003+08:00

Dear tummy,

sorry about the butterflies lately. But its not my fault, its his.

LOVE,
fitri(:

2008-03-22T11:12:00.007+08:00

Its 11.12 am & i'm supposed to be at work now. But, yes, i skipped. self-declared off day today. I woke up as early as 7am, like usual, but somehow my head & body feels heavy. So, i decided to msg the in-charge & said i won't be coming cos i'm sick[sick ke per. huhu]. Instead, mum woke us up at 8 to go for a jog. Still, my body feels heavy. She had to scream at us till we really really wake up. So, went to Tekong Park & have our morning exercise.

Anyways, on thursday, i brought lil sister to the library. See, i'm nice. Met shida after that. Yesterday was public holiday but i'm working. I'd already cancel my name but still, i need to go to work. It was quite a busy day yesterday. I have to wake up as early as 6am. Reached work at 7.30am. Its an hour earlier. I have to be there early as theres some events going on. Theres few customers who spoilt our mood early in the morning. damn. I'm so f-ed up at that point of time. Early in the morning siaa. #$@!^# Afterwork, met kak nana & terry. As usual, we went to have our dinner at Banquet.

Once again, i'm broke. I have to wait for another week for my pay. -__-

There's quite a number of movies that i wanna watch. Step Up 2, Rule #1, Vantage Point, Horton hears a who[cute show] & Semi pro. But i'm only left with 2 free tickets. I shall wait for another week again for more tickets. Movie date with me anyone? huhuu.

I'm so bored at home now. I should have gone to work just now. But i'll feel the same when i'm at work. So, where else shall i go now.

I love

LOVE,
fitri(:

2008-03-18T20:36:00.004+08:00

Since i'm free today, i shall update. In the morning, i went to Bishan campus to purchase the uniforms & pay the school fees etc. After that, went to grandma's house to fetch her & niece and off to vivocity. Bought for brother smart clothes from Topman for his graduation day. walao! He graduated for poly already siao. Anyways, i wanted to buy school shoes but didn't find any that interest me. lol. But actually, i already have one. Just need another spare one. Probably will buy the same as beybiee.

Ku terperangkap dalam kabus yang gelap. tak dapat bayangkan diriku tanpamu. semakin hari semakin rindu. Hati yang terguris ini jadi sendu.

2008-03-17T18:52:00.009+08:00

My right hand feels like dropping off. lol. Due to the 2 days straight bowling. On saturday was Hazim's 20th Birthday & they planned to go for bowling. So, i met them straight after work at Marina Square. Don't bother asking about the results. I was the lowest. Okay, I admit. I sucks at bowling. Anyways, had our dinner at Cavana then proceed to somewhere outside Marina Square to cut the cake. Reached home at 12 plus. Grandma & niece was at home. As soon as i reached home, mum told me that we're going bowling the next day. I was like.. AGAIN. My hand feels like dropping off already. The next day, went swimming in the morning at CSC. Then in the afternoon, bowling. I've mastered bowling & i won the first game. huhu. But the 2nd game, dad&mum won. They keep on striking. I don't even have a strike or spare at all. Pictures for now.

SATURDAY:

LASTLY, HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY HAZIM!

*All pictures stole from from Terry's blog[except for the last one]. ((:*

SUNDAY:

Babyku.

Longkang lahh...

Dad's dancing. lol.

The girl who stole my ipod.

Cute bangatttt...

I was working today & i only stayed at kacang puteh & pack popcorns. I nearly slept because it bore-me-to-death. I went home straight after work today. So very the baik today. huhu.

I'm missing my boyfie already. Once a week, it isn't enough. I've forgotten about everything. I acted like nothing had happened. I hope it won't happen again. ilyf. <33

2008-03-13T22:45:00.006+08:00

Actually yesterday we're supposed to be going to the zoo but despite the bad bad weather, we went to vivocity instead. & i didn't really have the mood to go out yesterday but i've promised my sisters to bring them out. So, i did. I didn't talk much to him. He'd make me smile. But still, i'm mad at him. Aniways, i spent again. Bought a nike shirt & a smurfette shirt. & i feel happy after that. Dad picked us up at cwp. Hunny called me before he went to bed. We talked & we settle things out. I'm glad we're okay now. I don't like to drag about this. I don't wish that all this will happen again. You keep repeating the same old mistake. I'll try to make myself to trust you again.

I've just reached home. Went to dad's workplace to watch him perform. Lil baby was there from morning as she had some activities there. As soon as i reach there, she was painting a t-shirt. I helped her with those. After that, there's a dog show. When the show is over, the kids have the oppurtunity to get upclose with the k9 dogs. Lil baby went near the dogs to have a closer look at those dogs. I told her not to touch it. But, here's the funny part.

Me: Did you touch the dog?
Lil baby: No. I didn't touch the big dog. I only touch the small one.
Me: huh? serious.
Lil baby: *smile*

Mum rushed her to the toilet to get her hand wash. See how funny&cute she is. After the dog show, we went inside the concert hall & watched daddy's performance. There's quite a number of performance. So, let the pictures speak for me. huhu.

Rasa sayang hey!
Barney!

HSM songs.
Dance along

Lil baby waiting to dance.

Lil baby enjoyed herself today. Btw, its bring your kids to work day at HTA today. She received lotsa prizes. & she gave me some. huhu.

There's lotsa things that we have to talk. You're just too busy. That's the reason why we didn't have some time together. We really need to talk. Imy. Eventhough i've been hurt by you for dunno-how-many-times, still, my love for you will never change. ilyvm.

2008-03-10T23:36:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling down. It's all because of you. I didn't wanna start a fight. Thanks for spoiling my beautiful monday. I regretted asking you that question. Thanks for hurting me again. I dont mind you going out with her. But going dere with her? Know your limit hunny. I'm tired of fighting. I know u're in the wrong but i don't blame you totally. For once, can you please understand my feelings? hais.

I'm okay now. Thanks to my dearest friends(:

Eventhough i'm not in the wrong, hunny, i'm sorry too.

ilyf<33

2008-03-09T16:00:00.002+08:00

Its been ages seeing me with specs huh? Well, the truth is i just found it. hoho. I look sooo goody-goody-good-girl with these. Aniways, i think i degree have gone up up up. I need a new specs or contact lens maybe. I shall wait for my next pay. -__- I won't spend my this month's pay because its half of my usual pay. Due to chicken pox(2 weeks MC).

I woke up at 9.30am today because i have to go to madrasah class. Shida was absent & so i sat with Filzah. My boyf didnt text me up till 12 noon. My baby tdo mcm babi. huhuhu. Relax lar. Joking kan. I know you're tired lar.

Mum asked us out but she dont know where to go. She's bored & i'm bored too. Kaki merayap. Like mother like daughter((: We usually spend our sundays at daddy's workplace. Either swimming, gyming or playing badminton. I really to do all these exercixing cos i've gained weight. My boyfriend says i'm fat. But i don't care cos he's fatter :p

I need to call Lido to ask for my schedule. damn. i dont wanna work can?

I need you boo

I gotta see you boo

2008-03-06T17:22:00.004+08:00

Replies to tag:

Syila: re-linked babe!

Naddie: hair tied? haha. yupp2. chris brown - with you remix. nice rite? lol. oh yarr. all start the same. 14. hmm. then 10 more days, MY DAYY!

Farah&sis: no problemo.

Zuliana: a'ahh sehhs. AL nie tkleh simpan rahsie larr. ishh2. 7 pon 7 larr. hahah. lol.

Proper update now. Thursdays, have always been my off day && it's the only day i can wake up late. However, today's different. Mum woke me up at 7.30am && asked me to get ready for sis to go to school. That lil girl. All she know is cry cry cry.

Met up with hunny yesterday after work. Watched 2 faces of my girlfriend at Bugis. Comedy, sad & a happy ending. Overall, a nice one.

Sometimes i feel like deleting this blog coz i seemed to have neglected it. Well, its not that i'm busy with work but i seemed to get lazier each day. Also, my computer is dead & dad usually use this lappy. So, i don't stand a chance to even touch it.

Aniways, today is my off day & so being sucha good daughter, i stayed at home & helped mum with the household chores. I woke up as early as 7.30 am just to help her. See, how filial i am. haha. After helping her, i had movie marathon. Watched jumper, meet the spartans, step up 2(but halfway).

Aku cinta apa adanya kamu<3

2008-03-02T21:58:00.002+08:00

This blogger has been giving me problems. I'm not sure if you peepol realised that the fonts have change its colours. I didn't touch it for days. I guess it really need a new skin. But the problem is do i really have the time to do all that? damn.

Well, my days are getting better & better each day. && i'm getting happier & happier each day. && my working days are decreasing. I don't seem to be interested in that work anymore due to some reasons. One of it because i'm much much interested in school since school will be starting soon. I can't lie that i don't miss school. I do. Especially the secondary school days. I'll be starting school on 14 April.

I got my pay & now its time for me to go SHOPPING. Shida have reserved me to go with her. Anyone else? hahah. LOL. Aniways, i got 4 movie tickets. So, be good to me peepol ((:

I'm working in the morning shift tomorrow. Its monday tomorrow & what you expect me to do at work. LEPAKKK. huhu.

IMY beybiee. I get to meet you once a week only. I need you here. I need to talk to you.

FUCKEROOOO~

2008-02-21T15:11:00.005+08:00

I should have this entry updated 2 days ago. I've typed everything here then i tend to erase it off because i was too busy chatting, surfing the net & neglected the entry. So, there goes my entry. So, as from now, i won't do anything else when i'm blogging. So, i shan't go online, open a new tab for other webbie. Now, i shall carry on.

Yesterday, met hunny after work. Then we walked from orchard to Esplanade since we just wanna chill. If we were to walk around, we'll surely spend our $$$. I've promised myself not to spend till i get my next pay which is in a weeks time. Like usual, we will definitely talked about the past & LOL about it. Took bus home && i had a good&comfortable sleep. I was very tired && even hunny have to drag me. && i was welcomed with an empty house. All of them went for a dinner. hmpphh! Never wait for me. I didn't have a dinner yesterday. Well, i skipped 2 meals. I'm not on diet lah. DUH! I don't have time to eat breakfast cos i overslept && for dinner, i don't have any appetite at all. I only had lunch yesterday. && i ate lunch ALONE, in the office. Aniways, this week is going to be a bored-to-death week for me because my working days is only 3 days. I requested for 5 working days && only get 3 working days. wth wth wth. What you expect me to do during the 4 off days? damn.

During CNY: Pietao & me
me, my daughter, my father
where's mum?
From left : Yani,Salimah,Zuliana & Me

((:

Btw, me&Salimah had the same shoes. huhu.

Tuesday was my off day but actually i requested to work on that day. Got my result. I got a message at 6:14am. && i got a place in ITE. Accounting @ Bishan. Alhamdulillah. I'm happy for whatever i get. But still, i wanna appeal for Early Childhood @ Bishan. Mum told me that i should take accounting. Well, i'll go for my interest((: Aniways, met kak nana & yani at Orchard && we walk to Plaza Singapura. Went to Bugis then Esplanade.

And if our love was a story book

We would meet on the very first page

The last chapter would be about

How I'm thankful for the life we've made

P.S. I LOVE YOU <33

2008-02-17T20:43:00.004+08:00

Like finally - a proper update. So, where shall i start now. Honestly, i can't really recall what i did for the week. I think i shall update about yesterday since i can only remember clearly what i did yesterday. hehehhs. It was my off day. Stay home in the afternoon. At night, went out with family & meet the paternal side at west coast park. Walked around, sit around, counting stars, climbing the spider web. In summary, we went there to celebrate the birthdays of the february babies. Well, now let the pictures speak for me.

Chubby girl. geramm. mcm nk cubit2 pipi dier. hehe.

Presenting the february babies.

Including brother. Happy Belated 20th on 11 Feb ((:

The girls

I was trying to get in the picture.

&& I was being cut
Finally
On the web

Blurry

I've been MIA for quite a long time && what you get is a short entry. At least i made an effort to update. huhu. I'll update more in a few days time. Insya'allah.

Your baby miss youu. -___-

2008-02-14T23:00:00.002+08:00

Pardon me for not being a regular blogger these days. One word : busy. work work work. because i can't simply just stay at home & rot. Also, i've been getting home late at night. Mum didn't nag at me cos she knows why & who i'm with. There's actually a lot of things i wanna update here but i'm just too tired as i've just returned home from my date. hohoho. Well, shop shop shop. Bought a zara top && adidas slippers. Actually, i've promised nyself not to shop again but i;ve broke it. Promise are meant to be broken isn't it? Aniways, we went to vivocity. After tired of walking, we sat && we chat. Talked about the past. I was lmao when we chat about the past. Yes, it's funny lah. Finally, you told me the truth. I'm not angry if you've told me earlier. I'm angry because you kept it from me. But at least, you're honest.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

You whisper the 3 words to me 3 times <33

2008-02-06T21:39:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not updating for like 3 days. Busy women are like that. lol. I'm starting to crap. Okay. That was random. I shall start my entry proper.

Sunday:

I was invited to a birthday party. Celebrated 3 february babies birthday at the Esplanade - Syima, Shakir, Zakaria. It was a surprise one. It was suppoesd to be held at Botanic Garden but the weather wasn't fine & we had to change the location. I shall not elaborate. Just take a look at the pictures.

blindfold.

sparkles on the cake.

the cake from above.with the cake.
me & b'dae girl.
again.

the b'dae girl((:
time to open the presents.

the card.
the presents.

she received a vespa.

altogether now.

on our way home.

*most pictures taken from syim's lj. heeehs. *

Happy M18 peepol(:

Monday:

In the morning shift like usual. I was 30 minutes late, again. hahahs. blah blah blah. Hunny came to my workplace & we watched 27 dresses together with my colleagues. Actually, we wanted to watch the house but my colleagues have watched it. After the show, met the rest & had our dinner. Hunny & me went to far east while the rest went home.

Tuesday:

Fantastic day. Went to the beach to cycle. Very very fun. I loike. It was the best place to release stress, anger & whatever emotions/feelings. Pictures here.

My heart's crippled by the vein that i keep on closing.

2008-02-02T21:27:00.000+08:00

Work time((:

Wednesday:

In the morning shift, like usual. Today worked with the fun peepol. Went to the store room to take the stocks and stuffs. Radiah matchmaked me & kak nana with some men she saw there. I was matchmaked with a liftman. We couldn't find any for Radiah but we'll find for her soon. hahaha. I so-love working with them both. OT on that day. went back at about 7pm but obviously didn't went home straight. went shopping at bugis!! hahahs.

Thursday:

In the morning shift, like again. This time, the fun peepol wasn't working with me. & i nearly sleep while working cos its just sooo BORINGGG. Luckily, after working, i met Shida cos i've promised her to go for a shopping-date. & yes, like finally we got the stuffs that we want. borong habis seh shida. haha. Bought an everlast slip on. huhu. Met kak nana after that & we went home

Friday:

read the previous entry. (:

Today:

Worked with rini & radiah. When those 2 meet, CHAOS. We played more than working. They love putting ice in my shirt & clip my hair with a BIG clip. prangai siak ar korg. I nearly fall just now cos the floor was slippery. Blame it on rini cos she's the one who mopped the floor. naseb baek ar tu. Radiah actually fell when she did shuffle. nangke busuk. We laughed loudly infront of the customers. haha. And also, Radiah love making funny faces. I took a video of her with her monkey face but it's blur & so i didnt put it here. Home sweet home. I went home early today cos i'm tired.

Baby boy you know

I feel the same

I'm so caught and

I can't explain how

You're smile and touch

Brightens up ma day

You give me strength to

Push my fears away

So, you don't gotta worry

You know I care for you

I know you down for me

I trust that you won't lie

Cause ain't no other guy that

Can make me feel like you do

You're my everything <33>

Labels: SUPER HAPPYYY ((((:

2008-02-02T00:46:00.000+08:00

I went to my workplace & waited for kak nana. Then, we proceed to Woodlands cos we're sick & tired of walking at Orchard all the time. Bought food at Pasar malam & find a place to sit. Oh, before that, we saw those artists at Pasar Malam - some of the anugerah & anugerah skrin guys + fadhillah. The guys were like so hot hot heat. *melting* Aniways, we lepak-ed at the interchange, chatted, camwhored, eatt. Okay, i've collected my ipod. huhu. I should thank dearest for accompanying me.

Sis's fon has been stolen in school, in her own class. I bet it's one of her classmate who did that. And worst, that f*cker can actually msg-ed mum in a very very very rude manner & using vulgarities asking mum to stop calling sis's fon. wtf. cb siak. To whoever did that,curse you. f*ck you.

I can't dowload itunes. damn it.

2008-02-01T23:41:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 4TH ANNIVERSARY LOVE<3

Eventhough we spent little time with each other today, still, i had a GREAT time with you. I didn't blame you. You have to work & i understand. I don't mind at all. On the other hand, i feel sad too because i can't spend my day with you. We celebrated at Swensens. I had a huge appetite today. huhu. Our table was full with fooood. We were kinda rushing because he has to go to work. He went off to work & i went to my workplace.

I never had this kind of relationship. This was my longest relationship ever. The longest i had before this was only about 4 months. You were nice. Too nice to me. You're the only one who understands me. I feel comfortable with you. For all these years, i don't feel regret being with you. Of course, there are the ups & downs but we managed to overcome all those & yeas, we're back together. I've hurt you once. You've hurt me twice. But i've erased away the past from my memory. & i don't wish to recall. Thanks for being patient with me all these while. You're the most wonderful boyfriend that i've ever had. Thanks for the gift. I love it very much & i hope you'll love the watch((: I love you very much<33

I never believed in love

I was deceived by love

I never had much luck with lovers before

And I couldn't compete

I seemed just part of the street

To be walked on by everyone but then

Then, I found a very special love in you

It's a feeling that's so totally new

Over and over, it's burning inside

And I found a very special love in you

And it almost breaks me in two

Squeezing me tighter

But I'm never gonna let go

You're not like the rest

I know you're one of the best

You give more than you should and take nothing in return

Stay always with me

And I always will be

The one person that you can count on always to love you

Labels: 4 years baby<33>

2008-01-29T23:32:00.000+08:00

I was super duper happy today. Firstly, i got my pay & it's amount is beyond my expectation. I didn't expect to get that much. Secondly, early morning, i received a call from Ngee Poly & the caller said that i won an ipod nano shuffle. I participated in a quiz & i won 2nd prize. I was shocked & called my other friends who were with me that day. Kawan-kawanku, tkmoh jeles ehh(: Now, luck was with me. Alhamdulillah. I wanted to get that ipod & now i get it FOC.

On the other hand, i'm feeling down. Yet, only friend knows it. Thanks for being there for me & willing to be my listening ear. I feel better after talking to you.

Actually, theres more i wanna update but i'm so lethargic now & i need to wake up early tomorrow. work. can i not go? haha.

Boyfie, i really miss you. We really need to talk. -__-

2008-01-28T17:37:00.000+08:00

i am in a so-not-good mood now. one problem after another. i really hate being in this situation. does he even care about me? it seems like i don't have a boyfriend at all. thats the reason why my friends are on top of my list. you've changed. you doesn't seemed to care about me at all. to be honest, i met him once a week only but really, i don't mind at all. i'm not the type of girl who wants my boyf to be with me 24/7. and i don't like to make the first move but i'm forced to do so. well, i won't elaborate anymore. i just don't have the mood. imy. i'm not gonna raise anything to you. I hope you'll realised it yourself.

4 years is nearing & i guess you've forgotten about it. ily.

Labels: :((

2008-01-25T22:43:00.000+08:00

I feel much much better now. Mum has cooled down abit & i guess she understands me now. I know that she expected more from me. But all i can say that is i've tried my best & i;m sorry. I've decided what i want. & i know i won't regret on whatever i've applied. & i just hope that i'll get it. I don't care what others says. I know what i want & i won't give up. If i get to poly, i hafta retake my science&maths. If i were to go to higher nitec, which i think i will get, i'll apply for early childhood. I die die want that course. Mum told me that it's better for me to take h.nitec because i'll get the course that i want. I'm not done with my JAE yet. I'm still confused.

So, on a brighter note, i could go back to work next week. And next week will be our 4 years anniversary. I still havent decided the surprise yet. I'm excited for that day. lol. Also, i've promised some peepol that i'll go out with them next week. Movie date. Shopping date. With different peepol. I'll keep my promise of course. So, anyone else wanna make appointment with me next week? (:

I feel hungry now. I don't know why. Usually, i don't eat at night. But today's different. I eat like a lot. Maybe i'm stressed up. I did that whenever i'm stress. I don't have any chocolate bars so i did a cup of hot chocolate for myself. Of course, to make myself happy. When i'm feeling down, all i find is chocolate. It makes me happy. & i hate peepol who doesn't eat chocolates. Okay, the truth, my boyfriend doesn't eat chocolate & i hate him. lol. hahaha. Read this boyfriend

Labels: ilyvm<3

MUCH LOVE
fitri<3

2008-01-24T23:58:00.000+08:00

*NOTE: Picture taken wasn't today.

If you asked me which day is my worst ever, today will be on top of the list. I've never seen mum so disappointed like this before. & i'm the cause for all this. i'm useless as ever. Maybe i'm born to be like this. Since young, i've been giving you problems. I'm not like the others. I'm different from the rest of your children. Look at brother, he'll be going to the university soon. Sister, she'll definitely clear her O's & went to a good JC. But me, where do i stand now? I can't turn the clock back. So now, what shall i do. Just sit at home & be a maid? I guess it's better rite. There'll be no more headaches for you. I don;t know what else to say to you. You just don't understand. I really tried my very best & this is the best i could give you. I've made my effort but you said i didn't. I guess you didn't pray well for me. I'm sucha useless ~~stupid~~ child. I'll never be the best :(

Belajar macam nak rak, results macam taik. utterly disappointed.

Well, i guess it's over. No use crying over spilled milk. I was thankful to have friends around. Their comfort, encouragement. I couldn't do much but just to thank them. Especially my boyfriend. Thanks dearest for being there for me just now. Like you said, what are boyfriends for. damn. You're right.

Kak nana is the sweetest. The sweetest conversation i've ever get(: Thanks. But still, i need a real one when we meet. Can i?

2008-01-24T21:50:00.000+08:00

I passed but I did badly. VERY bad. Don't bother asking. I made my parents sad. I didn't expect this to happen. Maybe luck wasn't with me. I've tried my best. I'm sorry.

I just don't have the mood right now. FUCKK!

Ohh, i need a BIG hug now. pleasseeeee!

2008-01-24T01:09:00.000+08:00

Time check: 1.09am

Still wide awake simply because i can't sleep as result is in less than 24 hours time. ARRRGGGHHH! I don't know what i'm feeling right now. Mixed feelings. scared+nervous+worried+bored. I'm chatting with quite a number of peepol right now. Of course, i get words of encouragement from them. Thanks yaww peepol. You guys are the best. Ok, i'll stop saying about the O's cos i'm getting nervous right now.

So, yeah, finally went out of the house. I received a sms from kak nana asking me how i'm feeling & whether i could go out. & so i said yes to all. I've recovered but not FULLY. Met her near my blk & went to Tampines Mall. We had a super duper lame reason for going there. I shouldn't post it here. Anyways, went to Bugis after that. Didn't buy anything there. i've started to save up. Walked to Marina Square. Bought a skirt. I thought i said i'm saving up? damn. & esplanade after that. We chatted a lot today since we didn't meet for about a week plus. So, many things happened within this 1 week. I just can't believe all these things are happening. Anyways, i'll take it as i don;t know anything about this. Reached home almost 12. Talked on the fon with boyfie & then he said that he's tired. So, i asked him to get some rest. Then, my friend called. & we talked for awhile. & now, i can't sleep. I was lucky enough to have this lappy with me to keep me company.

Labels: OMG! Results. All the best peepol(:

MUCH LOVE,
fitri<3

2008-01-20T14:39:00.000+08:00

It was a splendid day yesterday. NP's open house was the most enjoyable open house i've ever been. Seriously. We spent almost the whole day there. 4 hours there but it isn't enough. The part where i enjoyed the most was the Early Childhood's. We played games & we were running around like some idiots. But really, it's FUN. Oh yes, i went there with Shida, Ashqhiah(i keep forgetting to spell ur name,since pri sch.haha.) & afro guy. So, yeah, fun people. They made my day. Took lotsa souvenirs & free gifts. Of course, CANDY FLOSS. Sat at a resting corner & eat our donuts&candies. School of Sciences was fun. Did some hands on works & brought home. Pharmacy science somehow captured my heart & it'll be on my choices list. Still, Ealiy Childhood will be at the top of the list. But i'll have to see how well/bad i did for my O's first. I have a bad feeling about this. Be optimistic fitri! Then, boyfriend came. I have to fecth him from NP's gate. This leceh guy. He miss all the fun activities we had. I totally forgot about taking pictures with them probably because we're too excited for the open house. After that, me&boyfriend went to IMM. The rest went home cos they were too tired to walk. haha.

I had a GREAT time with you yesterday. Eventhough you made me angry, but still, you doesn't fail to make me smile((: Just like always.

My friend has been sucha darling nowadays. Trying to win my heart or wat? haha. You've changed, to the better. MUCH MUCH better compared to the past. Aniways, thanks for talking to me in the fon til 3.30am. But i didn't sleep after that. Continued playing PSP til 4 am. But still, my eyes are wide open. Listen to some music then zzz. Oh, thanks for the advices too. You give me hope. ((: Last long with your relationship. Cinta tak kenal siapa okay. remember.

Received message regarding 'O' Level results. It'll be on the 24th, Thursday. gahhhhhh. serammm oiiii.

I'm still on MC. 1 more week. damn boringg. A date anyone?

Labels: imylfc {:

MUCH LOVE
fitri<3

2008-01-18T21:45:00.000+08:00

'O' Level result next week? wdh?!! I even dreamt about getting my result yesterday night. See, it even brought to my dreams. How scary it is. gaaaahhhhhhh.

Anyways, i'm 60.5% recovered. I could go for NP's open house tomorrow. I shall bring my boyfriend & shida along with me. Then we can go shopping after that. Shall we? hehehe. And and i can go out next week. My MC ended till 28th. So, i won't be working till 28th. 2 weeks pay GONE. And i'll have to work for 2 weeks straight to get back my pay. lol. ~_~

Dad just got back & he bought something for us. A small digital camera. It's very tiny. I thought it's a toy camera but it's real. It could function as a webcam too. cool isn't it. As a saying goes, "kecik-kecik cili padi" ((:

i'm upset. do you even care?

Labels: :s

MUCH LOVE
fitri<3

2008-01-17T18:11:00.000+08:00

Its been 3 days only & i feel like i can DIE. I guess I could update my blog everyday for 2 weeks straight BUT it'll be a boring one cos i'll be saying the same thing again and again. Aniways, i'm recovering soon. Is it a great news to you? To whoever who wants to go out with me, i'm able to do so by next week. insya'allah. I wanna go shopping. I wanna go to work. I wanna meet my friends. I wanna meet my boyfriend. I miss all of these.

Sometimes, i feel like i'm all alone in this world. Sometimes i feel like i don't have any friends. Sometimes i feel like my boyfriend doesn't exist at all. All of them were too busy with their own world. To my friend, you only came to me when you have a problem & now you leave just like that but i know you'll come back to me when another problem came. I know you. Is this what you call friends? I'm cool. I don't regret if ever one day i lose a friend like you. Remember this boy. I'm not your BESTfriend anymore.

And to my dearest boyfriend, i had this sudden feeling that you've changed. To the better or worst, i'm not too sure. Sometimes i feel like you're neglecting me but sometimes i feel that you wanted to be with me 24/7. See, i'm not sure myself. I'm just hoping for the better. 4 years is coming & i don't want anything negative to happen to us. I could go crazy if such things ever happen. I cherish this relationship very much. I love love you.

I don't want this entry to be an emo one but i can't help it. I just can't. I feel happy this way. I'll go write my diary after this.

Yes, 'O' level result is getting nearer. ouh gawddd. serammm-ing.

Labels: You won't see me cry.

MUCH LOVE,

fitri<3

2008-01-16T22:05:00.000+08:00

So, yeah, don't bother asking me hows my day today cos it's a bore. Of course, stayed, or shall i say rotted(i guess its a better word to use) at home. damn this chicken poxx. My hp was dead silence. Even my dearest boyfriend didn't find me. hmmppff. I was the one who has to make the first move. Like always. I'm used to it lahh. Aniways, my chicken pox is getting worst. Gatal siakkk. I feel like scratching my whole body like monkeys do. Tak leh angkat beb! Now i know how chicken pox is. Lesson learnt : Do not laugh at others cos in the end you'll get laughed at. pfffft! I was laughing at sis & making fun of her for having those "polka dots" all over her body. And now, its her turn to laugh at me. Retribution i guess. haha. lols. Its only been 2 days and i'm sick of eating those pills.

Anyhooos, dad went for a holiday AGAIN. He just got back from Japan few months back & now he's on a cruise, Star Virgo. sheeesh. I wanna go there too. And i wanna go for a holiday too. Can i? I feel stressed up at home.

Labels: Each happy ending's a brand new beginning (:

2008-01-15T21:12:00.000+08:00

It's confirmed. CHICKEN POXX! damnn. 2 weeks of MC. 2 weeks of rotting at home. Went to Choa Chu Kang's Polyclinic as Woodlands Polyclinic is closed for renovation. The polyclinic is full of sick peepol. I can't stay longer there because my chicken pox is contagious. So, my doctor is mum's cousin. It was a coincidence to get her. We wanted to request for a doctor but we can't. We went home after that. Ate my medicine & i slept for 4 hours. I was awakened by hunny's call. Took my medicine again and have a nap for an hour. I have to set my phone's reminder to remind me to take my medicine every 4 hours. Aniways, i was lucky that my chicken pox isnt' a full blown like both sisters. Mine is much more painful&itchy. I feel like scratching my whole body. The older we are, the painful it is. Like syima said, da tue2 dpt chicken pox. haha.

I just checked my mailbox & found np's mag. I received alot of brochures from different polys. Np's open house will be on this staurday. I wanna go. IF i've recovered by then, i'll go. I really really really wanna go to take a look at the courses there. i seemed to have interested in some of the courses there.

I miss my other half<33

Labels: I'll always have you.

MUCH LOVE,
fitri<3

2008-01-14T20:49:00.000+08:00

I'm pissed off. Firstly, i've wrote a long entry but now its all GONE. damnn. Waste my time, energy, effort & everything else.

Secondly,i think i'm down with chicken pox now. damnn. i've to stay at home for 2 weeks. shittto. I hate this. blame my sister for that. she was the first then my other sis & now its my turn. Sooner or later, my bro will get it too. I have to cancel ALL my plans for this week. f*cking f*ckkkkk. But it's not confirmed. i'll go to the doctor to confirm tomorrow. I've to meet Shida tomorrow & i think i've to cancel it. ouh gawddd. Theres some bubbly thing on my hand & leg. I hope its not chicken pox.

2 weeks of not meeting him? aiyohh. I've not met him for 2 days & i've miss him already. <33

Suddenly, i feel like eating donuts.

I wanna have a hair like that((: can i? I seemed to like to have a pink strand of hair.

If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you.
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do.

MUCH LOVE,
fitri<3

2008-01-13T18:47:00.000+08:00

Its been almost a week since i updated. So, i shall junk everything down here. Starting from tuesday.

Tuesday

I was in the morning shift like usual. We were late. Blah blah. And as usual, we didnt go home straight after work. Walked around. Window-shopped. && was home nearly 12am.

Wednesday

Bumped into syidin in the morning. Board the same train & went to work together. After work, met hunny at woodlands. I wanna buy a memory card for my phone. 2gb yeah. heehs. Met syidin also. Then the guys went lepak-ing at al-ameen. Hunny send me home first.

Thursday

Work in the morning shift. It was boring. Not busy at all. blah blah. Met Shida after that. We went to Forum then Paragon. Job hunting lah. After that, went window shopping. Theres lotsa stuffs we wanna buy. We'll have to wait till next week. After Shida got her pay. haha. kesian dier.

Friday

At 8am, mum woke me up & told me to follow her & dad to Geylang. She wants me to survey my Hari Raya clothes. So, yeah, my whole family will be wearing brown this year. I went off around 1pm & met kak nana at tampines. Went to TP open house. I was expected to meet my PLs but i didn't saw any of them. The business school's performance was fun. Walked around the school the off to tampines mall. After that, we headed to marina square & then proceeded to esplanade. Reached home nearly 12am. By then, everyone was asleep.

Saturday

I went to NYP's open house to take a look at all the courses they have. I'm only interested in 1 of the course. lol. Only stayed for a while cos there's not much thing happening there. Juntion 8 after that. I bought 2 Esprit tops. I should'nt be spending my $$ actually. He'll confiscate my card one day. I should keep the $$ for next week. Going shopping with Shida. hehe. Aniways, went home early as he's going to Night Safari.

Today

As you know, its sunday or i shall say madrasah-day for me. I was a little late. Didn't really study much again. We did less study & more laughing&joking around. Today's attendence is terrific. I think everyone came. So, it was a bit cramp. Will be meeting Shida tomorrow. Another job hunting & shopping.

I've been coming home late til 12am these days. Mum has been nagging. But yeah, i'm used to it.

My boyfriend is getting fatter ((: 4 years anniversary is coming. I'm looking forward to that day baby <3

you're on my heart just like a tattoo.

2008-01-07T20:24:00.000+08:00

I was home early today. Usually I'll be home around 11pm. hahahs. Well, i didn't meet anyone after work today like i usually did. & i finish work early too. Emmika went to my workplace just now. She didn't know i was there. She was shocked to see me there. & i didn't know she was working at Shaw too. It's a great news to me. So, i could meet her anytime after work & we could go shopping together. I miss her too. My sales today wasn't that good because there isn't much customers. I had a great time with Radiah at work. I've been working with her for these past few days. kecoh beb. She's a great entertainer. We talked alot today mostly about our life, share gossips like we usually did. It's fun being at work at times.

Anyhoos, polys open house will be held this week and the next. Its a must for me to go to each and every poly.

I wanna erase you off my mind but I can't because you keep appearing. I don't wish to be your bestfriend anymore. You know how much i hate the past & you keep reminding of that. If you read this, please stop all this.

Biar-biarkan saja
Semua cerita yang telah lalu
Anggap tak pernah ada
Sesuatu antara kita berdua.

I miss my baby boyy♥ I've not met him for like 24376895 days. I wanna meet him soon but he's just too busy with his work. :( I'll have to wait again.

2008-01-06T20:26:00.000+08:00

Happy sunday. Well, it was supposed to be like that but my sundays will not be a happy one anymore coz madrasah has started. lol. But I'm happy to meet friends there. It's like a school to me. I miss school of course. Anyways, we didn't study today. Chatted, joking around and stuffs like that. We do that all the time. This year will be my last year. yay-ness. So, next week, I'll be meeting shida && do some job hunting. A second job. lol. But i'll stick to the current job, still.

Oh yes. How can i forget. A day out with my long-time-no-see-bestfriend was SUPERB. Went shopping. First, went to clementi to meet someone. Something really embarrasing & funny hapened. I shall not update here. Next stop,was Bugis. We did shopping there. Then, went to heeren. Bought accessories. Now, pictures time.

Black & white. We didn't set any colour code for that day. It's a coinidence(:

Now, i should stop spending coz i did a lot of shopping already. i'll go bankrupt soon. but thats not the main reason why i need a second job. Only shida knows.

Well, work have been such a bore nowadays because school has started and there isn't much peepol going to the cinemas. All we do is sit, eat popcorn or stare at the blank space.

Kak nana reading a mag which she took from our neighbour, Starbucks.

Terry was sleeping i guess. lol.

Sometimes i get irritated because some china peepol will speak in their language,chinese, to me like as if i understood them. Do i look like a chinese to you? Maybe my eyes do & it makes me look like.

These pictures were taken without them realising. They should be aware of this IF they happened to drop by here(:

I'll be working tomorrow till thursday. I'm off on friday to sunday.

I guess thats it for today.

2008-01-02T21:19:00.000+08:00

2nd day of New year and i'm rotting at home. Simply because i'm too lazy and also i'm taking care of my sick sister. Today was the first day of school for kindergarten kids, primary & secondary school students. However, my lil sister have MC for 2 weeks. She was way too excited the week before because school's reopening and I don't know why she loves school. She was feeling unhappy this morning as she couldn't attend school to meet her friends. Anyways, speaking of school, results are geting nearer. In a month time i guess.

Yesterday was fun @ ECP. Eventhough I didn't swim, I had fun playing with the sand. Building sandcastle, feets in the sand, playing with the cute little ones. My niece was cute. It's a waste that I didn't get to take her photo because my fon wasn't with me all the time. Well, I just love kids. They are just way too cute for me. Well, pictures of my sisters and cousins below. And also the sandcastle which we helped built(mostly did by daddy).

So, i'll be meeting my long-time-never-see-bestfriend tomorrow. My snow white princess((: heees. I miss her yawww.

So, i took 4 days off. hahhhs. I wanna enjoy my new year. heees. ((:

Idky. I hate myself. I just couldn't control myself. I've promised but I've broke it. I'm sorry. I miss you. I've tried, but I failed. Or maybe its you? Idk myself. I hate it. Again, i'm sorry. A new year. I don't want this year to be a bad one for us. I LOVE YOU.

LOVE,

fitri<3

2008-01-01T00:32:00.000+08:00

HELLO 2008!

My plan was to go to esplanade to watch the fireworks but I'm just too tired && lazy. Well, I worked in the morning but I'm lucky because it wasn't so busy just now. I was shocked to see Alien vs Predator mascot at Shaw House just now. They looked scary. Anyways, I actually planned to just countdown at causeway point as there'll be fireworks too but a mini one of coz. Like I've said. Lazy-ness. So, met dear at Shaw && then walked around Orchard. Shopping again!! Bought a pair of slippers && 2 mango tees. yay-ness. I just can't stop going shopping. Shop while you can((:

Well, today marks our 3 years 11 months together. A month away to our 4th. I'm happy && blessed to have sucha great boyfriend. It's hard to describe him but all I can say is that he's the best. I was wrong to have scolded && saying nasty things about him in the past. Well, it's the past. I'm trying to erase everything in the past. Many things have happened during 2007. Relationship problems that is. We may have conflicts. In every relationship, there must be at least once. But we managed to resolved all those problems. No more breaking ups, heartbreaking. I'm just tired of it. 2008 will be a better year for us, hopefully.

"If only heartbreaking is as easy as falling in love."

I'll remember that.

I'll miss 2007 eventhough it had been a dragged for me probably because of school. heees. After that then I realised time flies fast.

I could hear the fireworks but I can't see those because the buildings are blocking them. damnn. I should go down earlier.

Will be having picnic later @ ECP to celebrate this new year. Yeahh. I wanna breathe in the new air of 2008((:

2007-12-30T23:34:00.000+08:00

Just got back from lepak session with friends. I've been hanging out with them quite often. It was a last minute plan actually. One of them called me and we talked on the fon for like almost an hour. Then one of us were talking about starbucks cos we both are craving for oreo cheesecake. Suddenly, an idea came to us. We decided to chill at Civic's Starbucks && bring our lappy along. But after we get ready && stuff, we both felt lazy to bring the lappy as it'll be quite troublesome to carry a big bag with the heavy lappy inside. We decided not to bring. Walked around causeway point first before that. I bought an esprit top. Shop again. My pocket is going to tear soon. Waited for our friend at Starbucks. Then, I thought for a moment. It would be nice to be sitting at Starbucks everyday. With its comfy sofas, wireless networks, friends around to talk && joke around. Ahhh. Wouldn't it be fun to be there everyday. Aniways, had chocolate frappucino w/o whip cream(simply because I don't like it) & oreo cheesecake. However, I feel like throwing up after that probably because the oreo cheesescake was too corny for me. But hell, I love it. After Starbucks, we went to have our dinner at Long John Silver. Actually we were supposed to be having our meal before going to Starbucks but somehow we didn't plan properly. So, yeah, went to Titanic to lepak before going home.

Aniways, my little one is having chicken pox. She's the first in the family to get it. Since friday she has it. She called me at night coz I was outside && said,

sis: kak, fiza ade chicken pox(excitedly)

me: haha. makan ayam banyak sangat. (joking around)

She sounds cute && funny. I don't wish to have it coz the doctor says that the virus could be passed to her sisters. I snapped her photo this morning with cream all olver her body && face. She looked like a dayak.

2008 is like less than 48 hours from now. Time flies faster than I've expected. Excited of course. Tomorrow's plan, still in the process. Should I go for the countdown or should I not? But I'm working tomorrow.So, 2007 has been a fruitful year for me. I hope 2008 will be the same too. There'll be more events coming up on 2008. I shall list some here.

-4 Years Annivesary <33>

-'O' Level results

-New school

-m18(((:

Those are the most important events that'll be happening in 2008.

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE. Well, I'm ~~fast~~kiasu. hahhhs(: I'm afraid I don't have the time to update on New Year.

2007-12-27T22:05:00.000+08:00

Today was superb. Visited many places. First was IMM. I wanted to find a bucket bag there which I find nice but when we went there, it's gone. So, walked around IMM for a while && met Bobby. Had our lunch at banquet together with Bobby but he didn't eat coz he'd just finish his lunch. His having his break during that time. He went off first coz he's break was supposed to be an hour only but he ended up going half an hour later. Next, we proceed to Jurong Point. We find it un-interesting and headed to Bugis. I bought a top there. By 8pm, we proceed back home.

My fat boyfriend((:

He's my best & more(((((:

Oh btw, I received a Christmas gift from hunny. It's a cute mickey tee. I love it. Thanks so much((:

I'm working in the morning shift tomorrow. In fact, I always take the morning shift coz after that I could loiter around there first before going home(:

LOVE,

fitri<33

2007-12-26T21:58:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's plan was brought forward to today. Was supposed to go to Plaza Singapura to find a bag for sister but we ended up at different places. First stop, HDB hub. I find it un-interesting there. Had our lunch at fork & spoon. Then, off to Velocity. Found her bag there. && I shopped again. Bought 2 flowery printed dresses. I'm so loving it. I'm so obsessed with dresses now. Lol. Since it was only 6 in the evening, daddy decided to go to Thomson Plaza. Another un-interesting place for me. I guess daddy missed that place. We were around Toa Payoh, Novena && Thomson the whole day. Daddy used to work at Thomson && now his workplace have shifted to CCK. haahhs. sembarang. Aniways, bought food for dinner and proceed home.

Another short entry. I guess I'm getting lazi-er.

I miss you badly.

I wanna lock you up in my closet, when no one's around
I wanna put your hand in my pocket, because you're allowed
I wanna drive you into the corner, and kiss you without a sound
I wanna stay this way forever, I'll say it loud
Now you're in and you can't get out.

You're so good to me<33

2007-12-25T22:59:00.000+08:00

Merry Merry Christmas to all.

The actual plan for today was to go out with family but somehow something cropped out. I was waiting for mum to give the green light. While waiting, had my usual drink, hot chocolate, hogged on the phone with hunny then took a nap. When I woke up, it's already evening. At 8 in the evening, went to uncle's house to put some games in the PSP. So, the actual plan was cancelled.

A short one. At least it's updated(:

2007-12-23T22:12:00.000+08:00

My mouth is in pain right now. I can't really eat or even talk. Toothache? I don't know. shittos. I really need a pain killer right now. I'm working tomorrow. I know it sucks to be working on this kind of condition. I'll just have to endure with the pain. I feel like pulling out my teeth. damn it.

Working was pretty great today eventhough I didn't know the working people there. I made new friends. They're just great. I could get along with them well. Well, I could get along with everybody, anybody. ((: Anyways, I finished work earlier today. As usual, bounce off to Marina Bay then to Woodlands. I just wanna grab a seat && sleep. Mum called && fetch me from Causeway point.

So far, I've been working thrice a week only. Well, the most is four days a week. I'm not lazy. I just don't feel like working. What's the difference? -___-?

Went to uncle's house yesterday. I'm so jealous. Most of my cousins already have a PSP. Even the younger ones. Mummy, I want a PSP too. Sis can be selfish at times. Actually, all the time. I can't even borrow her PSP to work but she let bro borrow it. Bias-ness. I'll have one SOON. Should I buy a PSP or Samsung touch screen MP3. Both? nahh. It's a waste of money to have both.

Hunny will be home soon from his holiday. He went to Melaka too. Too bad that I went there a week earlier orelse I could meet you there.

My head is already spinning. Feels like I've just finish riding on the roller coaster.

Everything about us makes me grow<3

Much Love,
fitri♥

2007-12-22T01:35:00.000+08:00

Like finally, a new skin. I've been doing this skin for 3 hours or so. Well, it's a simple one. I love making simple ones. I seemed to love the colour of gray && yellow now. Lol.

Time check : 1.35am && I'm still awake. I don't feel sleepy at all eventhough I've been working the whole day. It was a busy day && I didn't even get to rest. I'm serious. I started work at 8.30 in the morning && ended at 5. No lunch, no eating. Nothing. I'm lucky that my dear boyfriend fetch me from work && accompany me to have my dinner which was supposed to be my breakfast && lunch too. Walked around far east && I bought a top. Seems like I'm going shopping every week. Wait till my pay && I'll shop till I drop. Nahh. I'll treat my family when I get my first pay. Anyways, after going to Far East, we went home as I'm too tired to continue walking.

Hunny will be going for holiday in a few hours. I'm going to miss him for sure.

This picture was sent by Terry, my MB mate. See how cute Theodore is. Damn. Its sucha a waste that I wasn't there. Thanks Terry for sharing this picture with me. CUTE-NESS. OMG((:

Lastly, I'm saving the last for the best. HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY NADDY!! Finally 17. hehehs. Have a wonderful birthday girl! (:

With Love,

Fitri<3

2007-12-20T23:39:00.000+08:00

I was so happy to meet hunny yesterday. It was supposed to be the 2 of us but my little sister begged me to bring her along as she heard that I was going to watch Alvin & the chipmunks. && so I brought the 2 sisters along. I wanted the trip to be a happy happy one but sister spoilt it. She made me scold && shout at her. I really did that okay. She didn't bring her ez-link && I've already told her that we're going to town. I was really really mad at her && started to nag. && that dearie boyfriend of mine said to me that I'm like a grandma who loves to nag nag && nag. She made me do that. Whatever la ehhs. So, went to Plaza Singapura to watch the movie. Bought tix first and then off to Wisma. Hunny bought shirts for topman. Then went back to Plaza Singapura. Well, one word for the movie, CUTE. damn. I wish those chipmunks really existed. Speaking about those cute things, I heard from MovieBites people that those Chipmunks came to Lido last Friday. It's sucha waste that I wasn't working on that day && I was in Malaysia. Wasted. If only I knew. I was so jealous when they told me this. They even took pictures with those chipmunks. That makes me even jealous. DAMN. Okay, theodore is so f-ing CUTE.

Today was Hari Raya Haji. Went to Nenek's house at Holland first. I love her cooking. Next was Atok's house at Telok Blangah. I'm bloated with the delicious food. See, that's why I love Hari Raya. (:

I think I've gained weight coz I keep eating junk food everyday. Grown fatter. damn it. Need to go exercising. Anyone?

Anyhoos, I'll be working on the morning shift tomorrow. So, I can't sleep late tonight.

You've moved on, after so long. Thanks for telling me all that. I'm happy for you, dear friend.

2007-12-17T22:33:00.000+08:00

Today was a blast. Went shopping again with mum. Bought a dress && a beg. I actually wanted a nike shoe but I changed my mind after I saw that adidas respect me limited edition shoes. I'm gonna get it. Mum told me to buy using my own money. Sheeesh. I guess I should start saving $$$ from now on. Early in the morning, went to school to buy books for sister. Then, proceed to Queensway. Sisters bought shoes. Had our lunch at IMM.

I'm still down with a flu && a cough. I had sleepless night yesterday && I'm sure I'll have it again tonight. I'm gonna take panadols again before I sleep. Get well soon fitri. lol.

I wanna spend more time with you but you're just too busy. I miss you, love.

2007-12-16T15:57:00.000+08:00

First && foremost, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!

I shall update about my holiday eventhough it sounds boring. On friday, went to Port Dickson first and stayed at the apartment. It's boring there. The next day was better. Went to Melaka. Did some shopping at the shopping centre there. Reached home yesterday. It was supposed to be a 3 days 2 night stay but it turned out to be 2 days 1 night due to some reasons. lol. It's no use bringing this lappy along cos there's no network detected. wtf. Luckily,I brought some dvds. Not much pictures taken. There's nothing interesting to take. Really.

my favourite girl((:

it keeps me company throughout the night [=

Now, i'm sick. Sore throat, flu & fever. How can? I hate to be sick cos I can't do anything much. I forced myself to get out of the bed && sit at my study table && update this. I'll lie again after finishing this. My head is getting heavier. && feels like its gonna drop off soon. I wish he was here with me cos he'll massage my head && it feels good resting on his shoulder.

We were supposed to be going out today because it's dad's birthday but the brother of mine went somewhere with the car && so we have to stay at home. damn. He forgets that today is dad's birthday i guess.

I need panadol. -___-

2007-12-13T21:24:00.000+08:00

So, it's confirmed that I'll be going on holiday to Melaka tomorrow. I hope it won't be a boring one. I'll be bringing this lappy along too i guess so that I won't feel bored. But I can't assure that I'll update.

Life has been pretty good for me now. Our relationship is getting stronger eventhough we didn't meet up everyday. I'm used to it. He's sucha nice boyfriend. I won't regret the 3 years plus we've been together. No more fights. Misunderstandings, that's usual.

Working life & schooling life is totally two different worlds. Honestly, school is fun-er than working. Really. But work, isn't stressful. Working is fun too with the fun people around. Yes, I should admit. I miss school. I miss my classmates. I miss everyone in school. lol. People always says that secondary school life is the best of all. && I agree with them. During secondary that we get to know lot of fun people we call friends. I miss those days. *sigh*

I miss MCR's concert on tuesday. I wanted to go but I dun have the tix. lol. I love MCR. damnnn.

A smile on your face, makes my day but I'll try to forget you.

2007-12-12T19:10:00.000+08:00

Shopping with mum is great today. I bought 2 dresses. I should thank mum for those. There's still lotsa stuffs in mind. PSP? mp3? damn.

Finally, I get to meet my hunny yesterday. He's sucha darling. hahas. He waited for me for an hour at Lido. Thanks for willing to wait. lol.

Someone went for rebonding lar sehh((((:

I'll be going on a holiday this weekend but it's yet to be confirmed. I don't feel like going on this holiday too. lols.

My entry is getting shorter && shorter. I'm too lazy to update && also there's nothing much to update. I feel like closing down this blog. Should i? >___<

I miss me love♥. I only get to meet him once a week. shheeesh.

2007-12-09T22:05:00.000+08:00

Window shopping with mum was fun. This wednesday, is my off day && she promised to go shopping with me. It can be fun going shopping with mum sometimes coz she'll be the one paying. lol. && she'll choose that something for me.

Anyways, yeaterday, went to the study award at HTA. Yes, I received the award, at last. $400 babe. Still considering on what to buy. PSP? iPOD? damn. After the ceremony, went to IMM. Shoppingggggg. Then, proceed to east coast park to chill. I was playing PSP & handphone games all the way while the sisters went to play the sand && water. Home sweet home.

I'll be going on holiday this weekend. For 3 days only.

I need to sleep early today. I'll be working tomorrow morning. sheeeesh.

Bintang di langit

Kerlip engkau di sana

Memberi cahayanya di setiap insan

Malam yang dingin

Kuharap engkau datang

Memberi kerinduan di sela mimpi - mimpinya

I'm missing Farhan. -____-

2007-12-06T18:56:00.000+08:00

*small eyes*

I've been MIA for 4 days. Thanks to work. Been working for 4 days straight. Working has be fun fun fun. Yes, that's the only word i can describe for my work.

Home alone. Mum & sisters went to the library. I was being sucha lazy bum today. Watched MTV the whole day. I've just discovered that MTV has a show called 'I want a famous face' whereby people wanted to have a face like their idol & undergoes plastic surgery. It's abit scary to see people undergoes plastic surgery.

I miss Farhan♥. It's been a week. I'm not blaming you. I miss your hug. I miss your kiss. I miss talking on the fon with you for hours. I'm blessed to have him as my boyfriend. I'll never regret that. He's just the best I've ever had((:

Don't waste time feeling hurt. We've been through hell together.

2007-12-01T13:02:00.000+08:00

Happy 3yrs 10mths, LOVE. ((:

2007-11-29T21:31:00.000+08:00

Well, working have been great for me. Today, I was 20 mins late. haahs. Today's job was abit relaxed. I have to take care of the kacang stall. There were very very few customers. I could count them using one hand. pathetic! but i still helped the rest.

Finally, I got to meet my hunny yesterday. Met him at Orchard && we walked, walked && walked. Went to Far East to eat, Sakura! There's this cute lil baby who hunny flirt with. lol. He likes the baby. He just can't take his eyes off her. He took my fon && snap her picture.

Cute isn't she? damnn. i feel like pinching her chubby cheeks.

To avoid jealousy, hunny took my picture too. lol. I didn't ask for it. Really.

I wanna watch Enchanted. I heard that there's a cousin outing this saturday. They planned to watch Enchanted at Lido. But it's yet to be confirmed.

Sweet or salted? (:

I love love him ♥

2007-11-27T21:45:00.000+08:00

First day of work was splendid with the friendly friends around. They were cool & fun to mingle around with. I'm the smallest (size & age). So, they bullied me. The first day of work was tiring of course. But I had fun doing the popcorn. It's not so easy doing popcorn. The sweet popcorn is playing naughty with us. When it pops, we have to go far away from that machine or else the oil will popped at you. It hit me once on my face. It's painful okay. But I'll get used to it.

I feel so sick today probably because I miss my hunny a lottt. He promised me meet me after work tomorrow. He's too busy with his work && so am I. His was in the evening while mine in the morning. If only it school wasn't over. I could meet him almost everyday. sheeshh. stop talking about school. damn it. I don't miss schoool. bedekkkk.

On a brighter note, my new phone rocks my socks. I'm so loving it. Next on my wishing list, PSP. Christmas is coming. So ppl, if you happened to read this, you know what to do. jk-ing. lol. I was playing with my fon and i did something stupid with it.

Tadaaaa. Alien.
Will you still like me? honestly.

Fine, i'm just bored. damn it.

Alright, besok keje. I need to sleep early today but I wanna wait for my hunny to get back.

2007-11-24T23:05:00.001+08:00

The Ninja...

who confidently thinks that Riverside was at Sengkang or maybe beside the Singapore River;

who loves SUSHI;

who has a cute voice;

who came to me and says "hahh, kecik" && laughed;

who was our mascot.

I am in a happy mood today because of the injection. lol. Nolahh nolahh. I'm happy because I've got a new phone! It's not my dream phone lah. I've changed my mind. I bought the k810i phone. Like finally I have a new phone. Sister bought PSP. Damn it. I'm gonna buy one SOON. YES YES. I need a PSP. Well, enough of this. Let's move on.

RED Camp was FUN but TP Rawks is FUN-ER. LOL. seriously speaking. But the best thing I like at Red Camp was the F-O-O-D. We had KFC for lunch on the first day, pizza hut the next day, breeks for the third day(lunch) && Ramen Ten for dinner. Isn't it awesome? I so LOVE the fooood only. I'm from the Ninja tribe. The most enthusiastic tribe. For the 2nd day, I won a lucky draw. I got 2 tix for GV. Movie date anyone? The BESTEST part of the camp was the ZOUK OUTTTTT! OMG. Everyone was HIGH. Comic Strip rocks my socks. hahhhs. no no. the band after them was the best. The lead singer was super duper hott. Too bad I didn't know the band name.

LASTLY,

IM A HAPPY NINJA! YATAAAAA!

*more pictures at my multiply*

I went for injection this morning. && so my left hand is numb.

I need a longgggg nap now. Dar!

2007-11-21T00:07:00.000+08:00

I'll dump everything here in this entry because I fear that I wouldn't have the time to update on the other days. Firstly, I shall update about the TP Rawks camp. I L-O-V-E IT. It's worth my time. I don't regret going there. I had a whole lot of fun there. The screamings, shoutings && cheering. Okay, I miss having camps. Seriuosly. FYI, I didn't come for the TP rawks 1st day. I only did the 2nd day. I'm in group purple. "We love purple. We love purple. We love purple all day all night. We love purple until we die. We love purple all day all night. PURPLE!" The purple cheer. Enough about the cheer. On the 2nd day, we had CCA activities. First, poison ball. It was a painful game. DAMN those 2 boys who hit me with the ball. Next, dragon boating. It was a HELL fun. No wonder brother took up that CCA. lol. It's tiring though. But fun. My group won. MJ(I don't know what it stands for actually) the name of my group. hahhs. We had lunch after that. Then, dance time. Dance was the best. I LOVE the mass dance && chicky dance. Cute-ness. The 3rd day, didn't really have much activities. We played computer games. Games for boys. I feel dumb playing those games. Really. I didn't know a single thing as to what I'm doing. So, to avoid my dumbness, i went to the toilet with Emika. Then, something stupid happened. Emika, you better don't say anything about this or else I'll post about Starbucks here. lol. Then, it was free and easy. went around the school. && we have 3 hours to walk around. We're bored && so we went to Tampines Mall. Walked around && sat at Starbucks. Something hilarious happened. I won't blog about it. Went back to TP after that. We played some games && cheering. Jam & hop after that. It is a best way to release your stress. We dance. We jump. We scream. Picture with emika here Before I end about TP Rawks,

Ti Ti Ti Ti

Running through TP

Tall, short, white, black

We all love TP

Tp Rawks, TP Rawks

TP Rawks my socks

RP,NP,NYP & SP

So So Only.

(TP's cheer)

Prom was undescribable. I had a fun time with my classmates. I'll miss them for sure. This year there isn't any prom king & queen. But there's an award for the best appropriate dress. Whatever sehh. There's nothing much to say about prom night. Everyone is interested n looking at the pictures. Right, peepol? Thanks for the peepol who keep complimenting me. I looked different? lol. Click here for prom pictures. It'll be much more interesting if you click rather than reading this.

I went to Lido to get my uniform but I can't take it first because I must get an injection && after that then I can take my uniform. Wasting my f-ing time. lol.

Will be having Ngee Ann Poly Camp till friday. Won't be updating till monday.

BYE lovely peepol.

2007-11-18T22:19:00.000+08:00

I'll be busy for the whole of next week. Firstly, I'm having prom night tomorrow. Then, on Tuesday, I need to collect my uniform(work). On wednesday to friday, I'll be having a camp at Ngee Ann Polytechnic. Saturday, madrasah exam. Sunday, working maybe. Damn. My week is packed. I'll be starting to work next week. So, you'll hardly see me online-ing or blogging.

I'm supposed to be updating about this the TP camp && my chalet in this entry. But I'm just too tired to do so. I'll update it ASAP together with the prom's updates. teeehhheee.

I'm wayyy tooo excited for prom tomorrow. who's not? lol. yeeeeehooo.

I'm tooo sleepy rite now coz I slept for 3 hours only last night. Ok, I need my beauty sleep now coz I don't wanna wake up with a panda eyes tomorrow.

Everything is great. Thanks for asking. - Me to Him

I love you my dear boyfiee.

2007-11-14T23:29:00.000+08:00

I was rotting at home the whole day today. All I do is sleep, eat & surf the net. This is what I usually do when I'm at home. Lazy pig, fat ~~ass~~ donkey, I am. LOL. Well, I'm still not done with my shopping for prom. I only need to buy accessories. Shopping anyone?

I'll be going to TP's camp tomorrow. Actually, I didn't signed up for that but Emika asked me to accompany her. So, I, being sucha nice friend agreed to accompany her since I have nothing to do at home. lol. hahhss. Pandai-pandai sign up kan. lol. On the 21-23 Nov, I'll be having NP camp. && I know it's gonna be fun.

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I dont worry cause
Everythings gonna be alright
People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything's gonna be alright

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling

&& ohh, i miss you too.

2007-11-13T22:56:00.000+08:00

For the sake of my dear syila, this is Kyle. cute kann? lol. dah, tu je. tkleh lebih2. hehhhs.

Well, I'm 90% prepared for the prom night. I'm getting more and more excited. I'm left with the accessories only. Went to shop for the dress & shoes yesterday with my family. Before shopping, went for job interview && I don't know whether I could get the job or not. They'll call me. Hopefully, I'll get the job. Prom is getting nearer. Can't wait to see the pretty ladies && handsome gentlemen. Well, classmates, anyone of you who read this entry, tell me how excited you are. Drop me a tag. lol. Okay, I'm just excited. That's all.

In my previous entry, I said that I wanted the k850i phone but now I've changed my mind. That phone is too bulky for me. I would rather go for k810i or maybe other phones that has 3 megapixel && above. DAMN. Any recommendations? I really need a new phone. Both mum && dad has agreed to buy me one.

*FYI, I'll not be using fitz_qtgal@hotmail.com for my msn anymore. I'll online using this account for the next 2 days ONLY. Add me to my new one nfiitrii-@hotmail.com if you have not done so. Ty.*

My hair is super soft now. I loveeee my hair. Thanks for the peepol who accompanied me for the solid 3 hours pluss pluss.

In the process...

Thanks eh naddy for taking this picture. Lol. I was asking her to stop taking my pictures. heees.

so leperr.lol.

&& it's all done. nice?

ok, bye.

2007-11-11T00:19:00.000+08:00

I just came back from the cinema with the cousins. There were 13 of us. Cousins day out. In the afternoon, all my cousins came to my house to celebrate the birthdays of the november babies. Actually, we have a chalet on this 3 days but somehow the chalet is pushed backward to the next week. I'm not sure whether I could overnight there because I got some other plans. Furthermore, prom night is getting near && I don't wanna get sunburn. LOL. Anyhooos, watched Game Plan just now. I love the show. Nicey nice. Peepol, you should watch it. It's worth it. It's a great show. I love the cute little girl && her hair.

Yesterday, met hunny at town. Then we went to Bugis. Proceed to Clarke Quay next. We sit && we talked. Took some pics too. I need to force hunny to take pictures with me. Thanks for the day hunny. You put a smile on my face(:

Can I have it forever?

2007-11-08T14:54:00.000+08:00

This phone has always been in my dreams. I can hear it calling my name. Dad promised to check the price out for me. Mum told me to change to a new phone before my current one get spoilt. So, does it mean that I will get the phone? I really really really really want && need that phone. 5MegaPixel. It cost about $700-$800++. DAMN YOUUU. I want that phone like crazyy shit. Dad wanted N95. OOOOMMMGGGGGG!!

I'll be having a family chalet tomorrow till sunday && I'll be staying there for the 3 days, I think. So, I won't be able to blog or online. I'll be enjoying myself there. Releasing all my stress @ Escape.

I'm damn bored. We were supposed to be out today but we didn't. Mum cancelled our plan. I'm tired of sitting at home doing nothing. Is there anybody out there who could make my day fun && enjoyable?

First you say you wont

then you say you will

you keep me hanging on

but we're not moving on

Seal up your lips and give no words but mum

2007-11-07T23:38:00.000+08:00

Window shopping with syima was a hell FUN. It has been donkeys monkeys months since we last went out together. We were at town from 3 pm -7pm. 4 hours of walking. Went to Wisma first. Then Far east. We went in almost every shop there. The dresses there was nicey nice. But of course some cost a bomb && some affordable. I've found 2 choices. Well, I still have not decided on what I'm going to wear. But I do have something on my mind. && Syima gave me some ideas on what to wear. After that, we proceed back to woodlands && went to Starbucks. Okay. I don't drink coffee. I don't eat whipped cream. I know I'm weird. lol. Hot chocolate is LOVE. Both of us forgot something important. Taking a photo of both of us. Silly us. We should go out together often. lol.

my new bf(:

ok. sedapp i know. lol. byee.

2007-11-06T22:05:00.000+08:00

Waaweewoooo. You won't be seeing me in this blue uniform ever again(hope so).

'O' Levels are finally over. The day I was waiting for is finally here. I'm breaking free. Stress-free. I am sucha happy monkey.

Lets just summarise for all the papers. Science paper was a killer to me. Both of it. I'll definitely do badly for my science. Maths was OK. Paper 2 was easier than paper 1. && the rest of the paper was OKLAH. Lets not talk about 'O' Levels now. It's over. Just have to wait for the results. I just wanna get my ass into poly. DIE DIE must. Nursing pon jadilah(: LOL.

Prom for now. Anyone wanna be my prom-shopping companion? Lotsa stuffs in mind. Dammn. I need more $$$. Mummy will definitely scream at me for asking $$$ but nvm, there's still daddy. He'll save my day. lol. I'll pay up as soon as I get the job. Hair need to be rebonded.
I tink I'll go shopping + surveying tmrw with syima. I need my card. $$$ lol.

*Raya pics @ my multiply* (Its-so-outdated)

2007-11-03T23:34:00.000+08:00

My hands are so gatal that they decided to make a new blogskin. I'm loving it. Simple & sweet. =)))

2007-11-03T22:22:00.000+08:00

I've broke my promise. In my previous entry, I'd said that I'll be updating my blog on 6 Nov after 9am but I update this today. It is because I was tempted to do so as my lappy is just in front of my eyes. Also, I'm sucha happy monkey because 'O' Levels are ending SOON. Left with 2 more papers only. I've read a bit for my social studies but it didnt get in my brain. Blame hunny for that. He kept distracting me when I was memorizing my notes. Damn you && I did the same when he was memorizing. fair kan? Went cwp after that && bumped into sappy. He joined us. && I was once again bullied by him. Oh not only him, hunny bullied me too. He kept on pushing me without reason. Childish ~~monkey~~. hmmff. hahs. Then both walked me home.

*Above picture, hunny macam paham. He's not studying but instead termenung. *

Ok, ignore Mohd. Farhan's face. Stoink glerxx. He doesn't wanna take actually.

Currently I'm watching football channel. Actually, I'm not interested in watching football games but I only watch Man Utd because of Ronaldo. Rooney reminds me of someone((: Dad asked us if we wanna follow him to watch football on tuesday. I'll think about it first coz it reminds me of something/someone. I don't wanna meet that person there.

I remember like it was yesterday

first kiss and i knew you changed the game
you had me, exactly, where you wanted
and i'm on it, and i aint ever gon let you get away
holding hands never made me feel this way
so special, boy its your..
your smile, we so in Love (lalalalaaa)
yeeeah we so in Love (Lalalalalaaa)

and i just can't get enough of your lalala Love

yeeah we so in love LOVE

i want you to know...

You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you're my every everything that i could ever dream of
You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you're my every every every everything

In a minute now we're still holding it down
butterflies everytime he come around
you make me, so crazy, its crazy, ohh baby
i don't ever wanna be with no one else
you're the only one that ever made me melt
you're special, boy it's your, your style

we so in Love (lalalalalaaa)
yeeeah we so in love Lalalalalalaa
and i just can't get enough
of your lalala Love

yeah thats all i'm thinking of
LOVE, i want you to know.

I want to forget ~~him~~. I like ~~him~~ BUT I love him.

2 more to go. *yayness*

2007-10-22T21:28:00.000+08:00

On hiatus till 6 November after 9am. 2 days to the BIG 'O's.

STUDYINGGGG!!!!!

GOODLUCK FOR ALL THE STUDENTS WHO WILL BE TAKING THE O LEVELS.

2007-10-19T00:46:00.000+08:00

Okay, practical was ykcus. I screwed up during chemistry practical. I did know something but I just don't know how to do it. There goes my marks. I just need to do well for my theory paper. Physics was OK. Except that I drew the graph wrongly. There goes my marks again. DAMN. I nearly burnt my finger while doing the chemistry practical. I'm sucha ~~ass~~donkey when it comes to this. Well, no point mourning over something that has past. I was in the last shift && so my practical ended at 3.30. Hunny is sucha nice boyfie today as he's willing to wait for me till 3.30. I didn't asked him to. He just wanted to. Went to cwp after that. Bought munchy donuts && bubble tea(: I love oreo. I love chocolates. I just don't know why hunny hates those sweet things. He's weird but I love him still.

Ok, sleepy face. Damn it. Fugly.

Mugging mugging mugging. No last minute studying. No burning midnight oil. I've learnt my lessons. I'll just tire myself if I did that. I've just finish mugging. I studied for about an hour only. I know it's done in a comparatively little time. But it really worked for me. Eventhough it took me about 5 minutes or less to study something, it'll still go in m brain if I really stay focused. && yes I did stay focused. I only took a few minutes break && grab a bite. Well, I'm not burning midnight oil. I don't spend the whole night studying just like some of the students usually did. Nothing will go in the brain. That's for me. && yes, I've found a study partner for next week, Shida. Thanks gerl for willing to be my study partner.

These 2 donuts accompany me during my mugging session=)

I could count the number of days to the BIG 'O's using 1 hand.

&& yes, my room is in a mess again with all my books all over the place. sheeesh. I am not gonna clean it up again. I prefer messy room. I feel comfortable with it.

See, how messy my room is. Books all over.

Ok, I have no idea where my digital notes have gone to. MIA. I don't remember deleting them. I only remembered that I deleted transformers game. It's obviously not mine. It's bro's. But I played it too. Lol.

Bahaaaaa. I'm tired but I could not sleep. Lol. Well, listening to songs will help especially the sentimental ones. hahs.

Maybe I need something inspirational.

"First say to yourself what you would be;and then do what you have to do." - Epictetus

2007-10-16T23:17:00.000+08:00

Well, Selamat Hari Raya.

On the first day, just like the previous years, went to the maternal side first. Before that, took picx at home && also seek for forgiveness of course. Went off at 12 noon. Met the cousins && camwhored. Nini, i want the picx. Ty. Went to the paternal side after that. Had a small feast. Then went home. Oh btw, I have not uploaded the photos yet. Will do it A.S.A.P.

For the second day, went raya-ing with the paternal side. Nothing much to say about this.

This year, I don't really have the mood for raya. Big 'O's are coming. This thursday will be my science practical. Pray hard for me(:

Met hunny && went studying at the library. Both sisters followed. They begged me so that I bring them along. Sheeesh. I look fatter && chubbier in the pictures below, esp the first one. LOL. ~~fat~~ ass. Btw I don't know why in these pictures, sis sticks out her tongue. Maybe she enjoyed doing that. My cutie pie.

I miss this guy so muchh. I know you miss me too(((:

2007-10-12T23:55:00.000+08:00

On this auspicious day, I would like to seek forgiveness to all my beloved friends && to those who's reading this entry or rather my blog. Forgive me if I've ever done anything wrong to you.

Finally, I'm done cleaning up the mess in my room. My room looks nice eventhough I don't have any new things. The important thing is that it looks clean && neat. I'll have a condusive environment to study. I don't really have the mood to raya this year due to the 'O's. My raya will be for 2 days only I guess coz after Monday I'll spent my time studying but not pulling an all-nighter. Nothing will get into my brain if I do that. Maybe I should have a timetable for myself so that I'll spent my time wisely && not wasting all the free time I have. I've pinned up the 'O' Levels schedule at my noticeboard && now I think I should also pinned up some motivations like a poster or some sweet motivational words. Hmm. A love note maybe. LOL. But before I start doing my studying, I have to hide this dearest thing first or I'll end up playing it rather than studying. So, you won't be seeing me updating this often. I should say bye bye to this.

I feel like playing bunga api. hehs. -___-

i'll LOVE today. ((:

SELAMAT HARI RAYA KAWAN-KAWANKU. =))

2007-10-10T22:59:00.000+08:00

Hello world!

As of today, I won't be a regular blogger due to the upcoming 'O's. Its getting nearer && nearer. && yes, I've started my revision, TODAY. Went to the library in the morning. Actually not so morning. At 11. Nearly afternoon. LOL. Met Naddy && Fidah && Nura. Proceed to the usual corner where we usually go. We did some study for 1 hr plus. Yes, a productive one. I did learn something. At least there's something goes in my brain. Then, we took a break for an hour && started talking, or gossiping rahter. hehs. && Our gossips came true. Naddy, you know what I mean, ryte?

Yesterday, I had maths class. Met hunny after that. Studied in the lib for 2 hours. I have to actually forced him to study. I have to nagged at him like a mother. STUBBORN YOU. Stop lepak-ing && STUDYYY. You should actually thank me for making you into a better person. LOL. At night, went geylang with family. Daddy && brother wanted to buy capal. Brother drive. Hahs. As usual, Geylang was packed with peepol. It was difficult to find a parking. Met different peepol there including my neighbour. We live at the same storey but we rarely meet each other. He asked me something which I find it stupid.
Him: Dah besar eh kau.
Me: DUH! (laughing)
He expected me to be a kid forever. LOL. I bumped into HIM, AGAIN. DAMN. Maybe we're fated to meet at GEYLANG. lol. sombong habes. kacang luperkan kulit. damn you.

I need to kemas my room. Damn. I can't do it when my tummy is empty. So, I shall do it tomorrow night then. hehs.

I received another nag for mum regarding my prelim results. sheeesh. I didn't do well. She keeps saying this:

Mum: You have to do something eh. You got about 2 weeks to prepare. Please eh kak.
Me: hmm. tau.

Seems like she's begging me rather than nagging. lol. I know I'm not like the others. I'm not stopid. I'm just slow. BUT I know I can make it. I wouldn't wanna disappoint them && myself of coz. I wonder how brother manage. He did pretty bad for prelims && for Os his points was half of his prelims.

We're not drifting apart. We just don't have the time for each other nowadays. Maybe not now. I understand. Both of us are busy with our own life. Can we like ~~pause~~ for awhile? I'm really sorry. Ily.

I can't imagine seeing my boyfriend with another girl of coz. STOOPID ASS!

3 more days to hari rayer! =)) Excited? Yes I am. LOL. Don't bother counting down the days to 'O's. =___=

2007-10-06T22:49:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

This entry would be a short one because I don't have anything to update today. Went to madrasah as usual && I was 15 mins late. When I reached my class, Shida's the only one there. I thought I was late. But the rest are later than me. Lol. Dad fetched me. Good because I don't like taking the bus. Went out again to cwp as sis wanted to buy shoes for hari raya. She's so fussy. Damn. Mum agreed with me. We spent almost 2 hours in a shop. Munchy donuts = LOVE. I want moreee!!

He's usually out at night. sheeesh. I MISS MY BOYFRIEND♥ LIKE CRAZYY!

ahahs. Thanks for the memories=)

BYE!

2007-10-05T21:59:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was splendid. Went buke-ing with my cuzzies, Kak Na, Nini && Rizman. But before that I had classes in the morning. First, was English. I was DAMN early. Then, was supposed to have Chemistry but Mdm Rekha didn't come. We waited for an hour plus and then we went off. Went to NTUC for awhile && then went home. Thanks Naddy for accompanying me. Lol. Proceed home. Rest for awhile && then went out again. Meet Kak Nana at BnS && meet the rest at City Hall. Walked around at Marina Square while waiting for the time to break fast. I bought something && I kena cheated. Scammer. Hehs. Then, Pizza pizza pizza. Yumms. Went to pizza hut to break our fast there. Had the cheesy thingyy. I LOVE cheese. I was DAMN full. After eating, went to esplanade. Sit, chat, laugh, camwhore. They made me laugh a lot yesterday. Hahaha. Went off at 10 && I reached home at 11.30. Mum did nagged but I'm used to it. Lol. Furthermore, she knows who I went out with.
*Pictures up here*

Today was just another boring day. Didn't have any classes today && so stayed home. Helped mum make kueh makmur. My favourite.

I've promised myself to start my revision NEXT WEEK. Days to big 'O's are countable. DAMN. Mugging mugging mugging. Anyone?

I dropped my hp again. DARN. I want a new phone.

I did something wrong && I did apologise. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to but I just can't help it. My attitude sucks. I know. I LOVE YOU SO. I'm wrong && I'm sorry.

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apa pun. <33

I MISS HIMM♥

2007-10-02T20:07:00.000+08:00

First && foremost, I would like to wish my beloved kakak sedare a HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY! Dah tue sehhs. Lols.

I had classes just now. I was late for my humans class. hahs. Blame it on my sister. After classes, I went to cwp with hunny && naddy. We be detectives for the day. Now then we know how difficult it is to be a detective. Lols.

Helped mum make pineapple tarts just now. I like making kuehs && I love eating them.

Nice isn't it?;)

Watching Mimpi Manis now. STOP! Kau mencuri hatiku. =))

I hate ppl who loves to make up story. I trusted you all this while && don't make me lose my trust in you ok. Get this straight in mind olrite. I just don't want history to repeat again.

2007-10-01T23:15:00.000+08:00

First of all, I would like to wish all children out there( including myself ), HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY! Ok. Lol. I got nothing better to do but to wish almost everyone who's online yesterday && today. hahs. BABY GOAT! =)))

Well, I helped mum make cookies for hari raya && it's soo yummylicious. COOKIES. I'm a cookie monster[=

I've been listening to Hari Raya Songs nowadays. 12 Days to raya. haha. Countdown sehhs. LOL. I should be counting how many more days to 'O' Levels not Raya. Hehs.

My visitor counter has reached 400++. It means that my blog has many visiotrs. && I like that. But there's some unknown ones. To those unknown ones, I really hope that you tag. The reason is simple. I don't wanna have any stalkers. hahs. lol.

Yeas. I was given a stupid but cute nick name by my 2 beloved cousins, KESAR & BECIK( their nick ). KEDEK is me. They got nothing better to do but to give nickies to each of us. NANINU = LOVES

3 YEARS 8 MONTHS, BABY! You're the BESTEST BOYFIEE ever=) I LOVE YOU MORE EVERYDAY! I may not be the most prettiest, smartest, richest girl BUT I am the luckiest because I got YOU!

They are just jealous because we're young && in LOVEEE!

I wanna kiss you all over(((:

2007-09-30T16:05:00.000+08:00

I wanted to actually change my blogskin but I'm just too f*cking lazy. I'm not in the mood to change it. After my 'O's maybe. I could change it everyday. It's not that simple to make one. It'll take me 1 or 2 days. Okay. Slow poke kann. I hate sundays because most sundays I'll spend my time at home rotting. Some sundays, I'll spend my day at daddy's workplace doing some exercising. I enjoyed doing that. But now, due to the fasting month, I can't do that. well, I was supposed to be studying actually but I took the time off to update this because you won't be seeing me updating this everyday soon. There's homeworks for me to complete actually. && I only did 1 and that's MATHS. I love doing maths homework. I feel cleverer doing maths. o-o

I feel much better now. I think sleeping helps alot. So, when I'm down, I'll sleep. && now i feel like sleeping. damn.

I've been pasting post it notes(the digital ones) at my lappy because I have STM. Nowadays, I tend to forget things easily. Tue. hahs. shheeeshh.

My post it. ((=

Some peepol are just KPOs. They can't mind their own business. I hate those peepol. They are just jealous. My life is better than YOURS. kcuf.

I miss my farhunny. ILY. <33

2007-09-30T01:45:00.000+08:00

I can't get to sleep. It's like there's something on my mind that's bothering me. Idk Idk Idk. I just don't know. I don't understand myself either. God, please make me better. I need my listener. I need someone to talk to. I need someone who could accompany me the whole night. DAMN.

Also, I don't need anyone to remind me of the past. That BITCH... WHATEVER. erghh.

There I go again. I'll stop thinking bout this. && I wish that history won't repeat again.

Ok, I'm over it. Really. I'm just glad to have him. I don't need you anymore.

I'll try to get some sleep after I'm done writing my diary. My diary has always been my bestfriend(: I'll feel much better when I write in it. However, the bad thing is that, all the past are in it && tears will roll down once I started reading it.

Goodnight. I love my hunny.

2007-09-29T16:46:00.000+08:00

Four years you think for sure
That's all you've got to endure
All the total dicks
All the stuck up chicks
So superficial, so immature
Then when you graduate
You take a look around and you say HEY WAIT
This is the same as where I just came from
I thought it was over
Aw that's just great

The whole damn world is just as obsessed
With who's the best dressed and who's having sex,
Who's got the money, who gets the honeys,
Who's kinda cute and who's just a mess
And you still don't have the right look
And you don't have the right friends
Nothing changes but the faces, the names, and the trends
High school never ends

I've officially graduated from Riverside Secondary School && I like that. Had the ceremony in the school hall. It was a formal one && so I brought my tie. That was my last time wearing it. Went to the hall at 9.45 && we get to sit at the chair. lol. First was the speech by the Principal && all the class chairperson.Then, Each of us went up the stage to get a gift from the school. Watched videos of different classes including mine. I'm touched by the video. The pictures were so 'legend'. Sec 3 photos, mostly. After the ceremony, i went home. Went out again at 4 && meet the guys. I was the only gerl there. Regina came later && so I'm not the odd one. Went buke-ing with them at Tanjung Pagar railway station. It wasn't my first time going there. The food there was super nice. Makanan melayu okay, not western. hahs. After that, went to vivo. Actually, they wanted to walk to vivo but then halfway, we sesat. hahs. lol. Took bus in the end. Walked around. The guys were finding prom things. Kiasu-ism. 'O'Levels first lahh. We sat at vivo watching the Star Virgo. lol. I'll go there, someday.(: I went off at 10. Brother sms-ed me && told me he'll fetch me from cwp. He's the best lahh. lol. Isn't it great to have siblings with car license? Honestly, I'm a pampered child. I'll get what I want BUT not EVERYTHING. There's limits too. I can't go back home alone at night. Either daddy or bro will call me && they'll come && fetch me eventhough they're tired. I wish I had a car license.(:

picx here.

I've just watched this show where they did a prank on their friend. It was funny lahh. Brother show it to all of us. Dad showed some interesting videos too. && now I'm addicted to youtube. lol.

You reminded me of the past. Thanks ehh. BITCH!

&& she fakes a smile when she feels like shit after what he did.

Wake me up when september ends.

2007-09-27T22:50:00.000+08:00

I wasn't feeling well today. My body feels weak when I get up this morning. I don't feel like coming to school but it's our last day today && I wanna meet all my friends && also admire our classroom for the last time. Also, today was the last time we sang the national anthem && say the pledge. hahs. lol. Tomorrow will be our graduation day. Excited, happy, sad && scared. All kinds of feelings. Peepol, bring your cameras tomorrow. Those who didn't bring, you are just so slengerr. lol.

I lay my head on the table for most of the time in school. My head's spinning && felt so heavy. It seems like I spin myself around 1000 times. We had focus for an hour only. Thank goodness. We cleared our books && files. I throw my files away because it's no use keeping them as it only adds up to the mess in my room. hahs. Seriously, my room is really in a mess now. All my books are all over the place. Mum have been telling me to clean up my room but i answer, later later. hehs. As focus ended early today, I decided to waste my time loitering around cwp. Bumped into syila && the gang && we joined them. They were so semangat looking for prom clothes. 'O' Level first lah peepol. hehs.

I will have sleepless night again today. damn. i hate this. I need the vicks.

Thanks again for cheering me up.

Could I have this kiss forever?